Wednesday, September 2, 2009
Sunday, August 30, 2009
sophomore year.
just some highlights, before i have a fresh start on wednesday. :)
particularly long blog, probably cos i haven't done one on here in a while.
concert choir retreat at 1000 pines. we had such an idiot bus driver, who needed to learn how to CHILL out, i remember he made us all file off the bus and back on becuase no everyone was three to a seat. and then he tried to assign us seats, the fck man, who do you think you are?! it was scary when our bus broke down as we were going up the mountain, it was really hot too! the whole weekend was really fun, i love singing, especially kids who love it as much as i do.
fall concert, through the eyes of a child. my first concert ever as a troubadour.
look at all those presents! :) i love christmas time! especially since this year, i got the pink canon digicam i've always wanted. i love the guys for getting it for me!
troubadour catalina retreat was the shit, hahahahaa. so much bonding time! ouija board, which was freaking scary as heck, esepcially playing in the dark. and almost getting caught by tison cos i was playing nerfgunwars with the boys. i seriously was having a heart attack behind that door! disgusting games where i had to eat crap, and a lot a lot a lot of singing! i'll still always remember this retreat at the first time i ever.... yeah. NEVER AGAIN.
APexams. apeuro, to be exact. this group right here, such an exception group of people i'll never forget. :) how lucky is it that we always happened to be in english class also? penhall & fitzpatrick ftw. haha, i totally died in euro, but i sitll managed to pull of an A both semesters and a 4 on my exam. yeaa! i love those kids though man. best class ever.
confirmation 2. the retreat was go great, yea for team kindness! i had to miss a choir festival for the retreat, but it was so worth my time. on the last day, i cried so much when i got the letters from my parents, lyna, and my bestfriends. the actual mass was so great, everyone looked beautiful. :) i'm so glad to be an adult in the church now, i hope to do some good and grow up to become a more spiritual person. can't wait to come back and TA this year!
doan camp! ahhh, being in a group with huong and david vu = domination. no doubt no doubt, thats the co danh du right theree in our hands! :) i love love love tnttsb. my second family, one of my happy places. i'd go anywhere with them!
choir tour ! lousiana & texas! ahhhhhhhhhhhh! best trip ever ever ever ever ever ever ever. hanging with the mormons + asians, jam sessions in the stair well. winning EVERYTHING. 
sweet sixteen birthday dinner at buca! 25 people? $500 meal + $80 tip? best sweet sixteen i could ever ask for, seriously. :) i only invited school kiddies, and i love each and every one of them! haha, thanks to vincent for playing me happybirthday on the uke, and chris for playing for me too! haha, i barely ate that night, was too busy circulating and talking to everyone! i love my friends, one of the happiest nights ever.
end of the year show, happiest music on earth. AHHHH! its my favorite concert of the YEAR. all those endless rehearsals were completely worth it. my time to shine, to show every what i can do. great memories with troubadours, i'll miss the seniors! the show was amazing, i even learned how to tap and swing dance.
DHNS @ cornerstone retreat center! okay, the overall camp was kinda sucky, but it was still a good time. our skit OWNED with our jai ho dance! ahh, this camp was like important, group 5 with lyndon, spent the whole freaking weekend with him. which turned out to have a larger affect than i thought it would. :)
bowling with the fitz/penhall kids. just a little reunion, not everyone was there, but it was still a blast! i loved seeing beckman and tle093 again forsuree! i suck at bowling, and everyone says i bowl in a girly way. :( WHATEVER HATERS. ahh, i hope all of us are still close as junior year comes.
DISNEYLAND after having not been there in 6,7,8 years! i love this place, LOVE it. its magical.
thang nay, and his birthday dinner. he's sixteen now! yaaay. so, it wasn't as bad as i thought it would be, hahaha. i'm glad i came, even though i was sick as a dog! :( we matched, yay, my favorite color pink! he's cuute, i'm glad i know him cos he makes me really happy. Lsquared823ftw.
particularly long blog, probably cos i haven't done one on here in a while.
concert choir retreat at 1000 pines. we had such an idiot bus driver, who needed to learn how to CHILL out, i remember he made us all file off the bus and back on becuase no everyone was three to a seat. and then he tried to assign us seats, the fck man, who do you think you are?! it was scary when our bus broke down as we were going up the mountain, it was really hot too! the whole weekend was really fun, i love singing, especially kids who love it as much as i do.
fall concert, through the eyes of a child. my first concert ever as a troubadour.
look at all those presents! :) i love christmas time! especially since this year, i got the pink canon digicam i've always wanted. i love the guys for getting it for me!
troubadour catalina retreat was the shit, hahahahaa. so much bonding time! ouija board, which was freaking scary as heck, esepcially playing in the dark. and almost getting caught by tison cos i was playing nerfgunwars with the boys. i seriously was having a heart attack behind that door! disgusting games where i had to eat crap, and a lot a lot a lot of singing! i'll still always remember this retreat at the first time i ever.... yeah. NEVER AGAIN.
APexams. apeuro, to be exact. this group right here, such an exception group of people i'll never forget. :) how lucky is it that we always happened to be in english class also? penhall & fitzpatrick ftw. haha, i totally died in euro, but i sitll managed to pull of an A both semesters and a 4 on my exam. yeaa! i love those kids though man. best class ever.
confirmation 2. the retreat was go great, yea for team kindness! i had to miss a choir festival for the retreat, but it was so worth my time. on the last day, i cried so much when i got the letters from my parents, lyna, and my bestfriends. the actual mass was so great, everyone looked beautiful. :) i'm so glad to be an adult in the church now, i hope to do some good and grow up to become a more spiritual person. can't wait to come back and TA this year!
doan camp! ahhh, being in a group with huong and david vu = domination. no doubt no doubt, thats the co danh du right theree in our hands! :) i love love love tnttsb. my second family, one of my happy places. i'd go anywhere with them!
choir tour ! lousiana & texas! ahhhhhhhhhhhh! best trip ever ever ever ever ever ever ever. hanging with the mormons + asians, jam sessions in the stair well. winning EVERYTHING. 
sweet sixteen birthday dinner at buca! 25 people? $500 meal + $80 tip? best sweet sixteen i could ever ask for, seriously. :) i only invited school kiddies, and i love each and every one of them! haha, thanks to vincent for playing me happybirthday on the uke, and chris for playing for me too! haha, i barely ate that night, was too busy circulating and talking to everyone! i love my friends, one of the happiest nights ever.
end of the year show, happiest music on earth. AHHHH! its my favorite concert of the YEAR. all those endless rehearsals were completely worth it. my time to shine, to show every what i can do. great memories with troubadours, i'll miss the seniors! the show was amazing, i even learned how to tap and swing dance.
DHNS @ cornerstone retreat center! okay, the overall camp was kinda sucky, but it was still a good time. our skit OWNED with our jai ho dance! ahh, this camp was like important, group 5 with lyndon, spent the whole freaking weekend with him. which turned out to have a larger affect than i thought it would. :)
bowling with the fitz/penhall kids. just a little reunion, not everyone was there, but it was still a blast! i loved seeing beckman and tle093 again forsuree! i suck at bowling, and everyone says i bowl in a girly way. :( WHATEVER HATERS. ahh, i hope all of us are still close as junior year comes.
DISNEYLAND after having not been there in 6,7,8 years! i love this place, LOVE it. its magical.
thang nay, and his birthday dinner. he's sixteen now! yaaay. so, it wasn't as bad as i thought it would be, hahaha. i'm glad i came, even though i was sick as a dog! :( we matched, yay, my favorite color pink! he's cuute, i'm glad i know him cos he makes me really happy. Lsquared823ftw. "is it lame to ask on the phone?"haha i tease, it was cute.
ahhh! its over, this was really long, but who the heck is gonna read all of it? :) anyway, i'm excited for junior year, i can't wait wait wait! it'll be hard, but i'm ready.
Friday, July 10, 2009
blog.
ive taken to posting on tumblr.
its a little more personal.
yeah, if you find me, yay.
if you don't, well its not like anyone reads this anyway. :)
its a little more personal.
yeah, if you find me, yay.
if you don't, well its not like anyone reads this anyway. :)
Wednesday, July 8, 2009
summer time.
yay for morning glories! haha, fourth of july was pretty fun, it's been a while since i've actually lit fireworks! they're so pretty! i spent that saturday at NS sports practice, where we played volleyball, it was more enjoyable than i thought it would be. i really hope we win the NS Sports Day! we don't even know what we're playing yet, but i'm hoping that its volleyball, cos that's what we practiced. haha! mass, then huong's house. played with kathleen! :) she is the most adorable little girl ever, cept she pulls my hair. :( mmm, talked with huong for a bit until we went to vinh's house to light fireworks! ahh, i was so excited! :) came home smelling like smoke.. so took a shower and texted and slept.
YESTERDAY was anthony's birthday, he's sixteen now! er, spent the day at his house. :) a mix of study/play. he's so smart. :( ugh. mmm, got home i was really tired and i wanted to take a nap, but i couldn't.. so just worked on some stuff. hmmm. later that night called tiffany093 to update her on some stuff. i hadn't talked on the phone in a long time, so it was nice! she's so funny. :)i love her.
god, i'm happy. <3
Monday, July 6, 2009
Saturday, July 4, 2009
?
i think i hurt someone. :(
but i really didn't mean to.
i just didn't know.
i was confused.
caught up in my own feelings.
what could have been, who knows.
maybe it would have worked out.
but, i'm happy now.
i have everything i want.
so why do i still end up feeing like a terrible person? :(
but i really didn't mean to.
i just didn't know.
i was confused.
caught up in my own feelings.
what could have been, who knows.
maybe it would have worked out.
but, i'm happy now.
i have everything i want.
so why do i still end up feeing like a terrible person? :(
Friday, July 3, 2009
alex the concierge.
today, i went shopping with jessica for five hours at south coast.
it was such a fail. :( i was supposed to buy a birthday present, but i couldn't find anything. and i didn't let myself buy anything for me until i bought the present. but then i gave up. haha.
we walked from south coast to the lab. oh my god. it was SO hot. haha.
HOT HOT HOT. and my feet hurt.
urban outfitters i saw this shirt i wanted to buy, but it was so expensive i didnt bring enough money. :( so i'm hoping i'll be able to go back this weekend and buy it. sigh. i DID buy sandals! $19 yayayayy. i desperately needed some.
buffalo exchange is so O_O i cannot shop there. it was really crowded and cramped and i felt claustrophobic!
haha we walke back, and its so scary trying to cross the street where the entrance to the freeway is. haha me and jess seriously ran for our lives across the street.
oh yeah and this lady asked us for directions to macys.. hopefully we gave her the right ones.
mm, bought a cute tee from aerie and lipgloss from bathandbody.
i'm happy with my purchases. wish i had bought that urban shirt though. :(
i went home and took a nap. i was soooooo tired.
i think i am going to read harrypotter5 and eat icecream!
yumyumyum.
goodday<3
it was such a fail. :( i was supposed to buy a birthday present, but i couldn't find anything. and i didn't let myself buy anything for me until i bought the present. but then i gave up. haha.
we walked from south coast to the lab. oh my god. it was SO hot. haha.
HOT HOT HOT. and my feet hurt.
urban outfitters i saw this shirt i wanted to buy, but it was so expensive i didnt bring enough money. :( so i'm hoping i'll be able to go back this weekend and buy it. sigh. i DID buy sandals! $19 yayayayy. i desperately needed some.
buffalo exchange is so O_O i cannot shop there. it was really crowded and cramped and i felt claustrophobic!
haha we walke back, and its so scary trying to cross the street where the entrance to the freeway is. haha me and jess seriously ran for our lives across the street.
oh yeah and this lady asked us for directions to macys.. hopefully we gave her the right ones.
mm, bought a cute tee from aerie and lipgloss from bathandbody.
i'm happy with my purchases. wish i had bought that urban shirt though. :(
i went home and took a nap. i was soooooo tired.
i think i am going to read harrypotter5 and eat icecream!
yumyumyum.
goodday<3
Thursday, July 2, 2009
Monday, June 29, 2009
smile, jesus loves you!
SB SPIRIT. :)
mm, camp was fun. it was really hot and i got sick, but whatever.
i hadn't seen lyndon and ken in a long time. pretty much spent the whole weekend with lyndon, which was funfunfun. made some new friends, which is always nice. :)
i'm tired and sore, and my voice is pretty much gone, and even though camp wasn't as great as it usually is, i'm glad i went.
Friday, June 26, 2009
campcampcamp
today is the day! i'm so excited! i have to leave in like an hour and i'm not done packing, but whatever. CAMP. i get to see LYNA. who i haven't seen in like ages and i have so much to tell her but she'll probably be too busy or i'll be too busy but hopefully i get to talk to her a litle bit. sometimes a phone call isn't enough sometimes, you know?
my APBIO book came yesterrday! i'm so excited! haha, i just need my shoes from urbanoutfitters, clothes from forever21, and lab manual to come and i'll be satisfied. :]
this morning i made brownies to bring to camp. yum!
lyan took me to the mall to buy a new bra, finally.
sushi with my sister diane anh long at maru sushi. it was fun ! i haven't had sushi in the longest time.
YESTERDAY went to anton's house and kicked it with thang and anton. haha, it was pretty chill, i love those two ! :] plans to watch transformers next week and beach it with them so i hope my mommy lets me even though i have like a million things to study, but come onn its summer!
today we're perforing for our skit, and i honestly have no clue how its going to turn out! yesterday's practice was pretty much... idk. well, it was an improvement. i'm really scared to sing in front of everyone and even though i've done it before cos of choir, its different. i'm like afraid the mics will be stupid or i won't move people with the song the way i'm supposed to. gahh! if anything, i had fun doing it with everyone. :]
i don't like to get into fights, but i'm not gonna back down if you say something riduculous to me. if i feel like i didn't do anything wrong, i won't take your bullshit. yeah, i'm understanding but i'm not going to let you walk all over me either. i don't mean to be a bitch, i just get stressed.
but, i'm happy. this may sound dumb, but i think i deserve to be happy. just a little bit of happiness. and, i am. everything is how its supposed to be, sorta... hahah. thinking of the near future sometimes skews my feelings but i try not to think about it. its scary to just give it away like that. so, i'm still holding onto it. just in case. just in case it's not what it seems to be.
anyway, i still need to cut brownies!
text me this weekend.
:] hopefully i have reception.
byee loves<3
my APBIO book came yesterrday! i'm so excited! haha, i just need my shoes from urbanoutfitters, clothes from forever21, and lab manual to come and i'll be satisfied. :]
this morning i made brownies to bring to camp. yum!
lyan took me to the mall to buy a new bra, finally.
sushi with my sister diane anh long at maru sushi. it was fun ! i haven't had sushi in the longest time.
YESTERDAY went to anton's house and kicked it with thang and anton. haha, it was pretty chill, i love those two ! :] plans to watch transformers next week and beach it with them so i hope my mommy lets me even though i have like a million things to study, but come onn its summer!
today we're perforing for our skit, and i honestly have no clue how its going to turn out! yesterday's practice was pretty much... idk. well, it was an improvement. i'm really scared to sing in front of everyone and even though i've done it before cos of choir, its different. i'm like afraid the mics will be stupid or i won't move people with the song the way i'm supposed to. gahh! if anything, i had fun doing it with everyone. :]
i don't like to get into fights, but i'm not gonna back down if you say something riduculous to me. if i feel like i didn't do anything wrong, i won't take your bullshit. yeah, i'm understanding but i'm not going to let you walk all over me either. i don't mean to be a bitch, i just get stressed.
but, i'm happy. this may sound dumb, but i think i deserve to be happy. just a little bit of happiness. and, i am. everything is how its supposed to be, sorta... hahah. thinking of the near future sometimes skews my feelings but i try not to think about it. its scary to just give it away like that. so, i'm still holding onto it. just in case. just in case it's not what it seems to be.
anyway, i still need to cut brownies!
text me this weekend.
:] hopefully i have reception.
byee loves<3
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
we're unstoppable now
i stayed up late last night, but its summer so its okay right?
skit practice yesterday was chaotic.
everyone was pretty much ALL over the place, and there was a lot of negative energy.
bao for sure is freaking out, but i am too a little. he's coming over today to voice record along with jason, huong, and daniel. hopefully we can pull this together at the last minute. i really want to win!
augh, i was really annoyed yesterday though. freaking thieu girls. that suck. that can't dance. in the back. that are too cool. my god, if you don't want to do it then don't be in it! ladkjfalksdjf;asidfa! and that other girl. whatever her name is. i will refer to her as monkey girl's friend's sister. i don't know why the heck you're there, but at least do something. offer to help! be IN the skit! you're there every single practice anyway. it's not like we have a million people.
augh! okay. i am calm.
mmm, i've been thinking a lot lately.. acutally have been forced to think a lot lately about this subject. haha, i dont know what i want. i know what i need, but want is totally different. sometimes i'm like, this totally isn't worth my time, but other times its like, maybe threre's more than what it is. i don't like giving up on things, unless i truly feel like its not worth my time.
gah, i am indecisive.
but in any case, until anything is said, i'm a free bird. i do what i want, when i want. if you want something, do something about it.
why is it that i still haven't gone to the beach?! :(
i miss my sister.
skit practice yesterday was chaotic.
everyone was pretty much ALL over the place, and there was a lot of negative energy.
bao for sure is freaking out, but i am too a little. he's coming over today to voice record along with jason, huong, and daniel. hopefully we can pull this together at the last minute. i really want to win!
augh, i was really annoyed yesterday though. freaking thieu girls. that suck. that can't dance. in the back. that are too cool. my god, if you don't want to do it then don't be in it! ladkjfalksdjf;asidfa! and that other girl. whatever her name is. i will refer to her as monkey girl's friend's sister. i don't know why the heck you're there, but at least do something. offer to help! be IN the skit! you're there every single practice anyway. it's not like we have a million people.
augh! okay. i am calm.
mmm, i've been thinking a lot lately.. acutally have been forced to think a lot lately about this subject. haha, i dont know what i want. i know what i need, but want is totally different. sometimes i'm like, this totally isn't worth my time, but other times its like, maybe threre's more than what it is. i don't like giving up on things, unless i truly feel like its not worth my time.
gah, i am indecisive.
but in any case, until anything is said, i'm a free bird. i do what i want, when i want. if you want something, do something about it.
why is it that i still haven't gone to the beach?! :(
i miss my sister.
Monday, June 22, 2009
you belong with me
"hot piece of sex"
yes he is. mmmm.
this morning i cleaned out my closet! i feel accomplished. :)
THE PROPOSAL with DARLENE today.
such a cute and satisfying movie.
:)
i love darlene!
ooh, my APBIO book got shipped today. i'm so excited. ahaha, i'm such a nerd.
this week is going to be great.
i can't wait wait wait for camp!!
i'm not yours to keep.
Thursday, June 18, 2009
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
summer?!
so this summer, i vow to be productive! :)
yesterday i cleaned my room and felt so accomplished! ahaha. mmm, i got my books ready for school next year, (i know i'm such a loser) but whatever. i was supposed to start apbio homework yesterday and today, but the stupid server is down, which means i can't do it! i have apush and apbio and sats to work on this summer. wooh! i'm planning on taking drivers ed too. and i applied for a job a tastea, which i really hope i get. i was laying in bed thinking about everything i have to do this summer, and it was really overwhelming! how am i going to handle it all? summer seems like such a long time, but like everything else, it slips right through your fingers. mm, i'll have to mkae the most of every moment. :)
man, i'm growing up. all these things, getting a job and sats, they seemed so long ago, something that i thought i wouldn't have to worry about for a while. and now, its here! its pretty crazy how life passes by so quickly. i'm scared, but i'm excited.
mmm, camp is coming up! i finally get to see everyone again. :) yay lyndon! ahaha. i hope our skit turns out well, and i hope we dominate. :)
i'm going to have some fun this summer too! beach beach beach and disneyland! plus spending my days with darlene<3.
mm, just one little rant.
don't get mad at me over things i can't control. don't be a bitch just cos i can't be somewhere. understand and don't completely shut me out, because, hey, i would never do that to you. don't talk shit when you honestly have no clue what the hell you're talking about. i guess that just makes you the lesser person.
ANYWAY.
call me up anyday to go play. <3
yesterday i cleaned my room and felt so accomplished! ahaha. mmm, i got my books ready for school next year, (i know i'm such a loser) but whatever. i was supposed to start apbio homework yesterday and today, but the stupid server is down, which means i can't do it! i have apush and apbio and sats to work on this summer. wooh! i'm planning on taking drivers ed too. and i applied for a job a tastea, which i really hope i get. i was laying in bed thinking about everything i have to do this summer, and it was really overwhelming! how am i going to handle it all? summer seems like such a long time, but like everything else, it slips right through your fingers. mm, i'll have to mkae the most of every moment. :)
man, i'm growing up. all these things, getting a job and sats, they seemed so long ago, something that i thought i wouldn't have to worry about for a while. and now, its here! its pretty crazy how life passes by so quickly. i'm scared, but i'm excited.
mmm, camp is coming up! i finally get to see everyone again. :) yay lyndon! ahaha. i hope our skit turns out well, and i hope we dominate. :)
i'm going to have some fun this summer too! beach beach beach and disneyland! plus spending my days with darlene<3.
mm, just one little rant.
don't get mad at me over things i can't control. don't be a bitch just cos i can't be somewhere. understand and don't completely shut me out, because, hey, i would never do that to you. don't talk shit when you honestly have no clue what the hell you're talking about. i guess that just makes you the lesser person.
ANYWAY.
call me up anyday to go play. <3
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
i am...
scared to get too attached.
cos, you know it might be pointless!
and then everything falls apart.
that's not good at all.
so i'll just keep it like this.
close, but at a distance.
i've learned not to let go of my own heart.
at least not completely.
cos, you know it might be pointless!
and then everything falls apart.
that's not good at all.
so i'll just keep it like this.
close, but at a distance.
i've learned not to let go of my own heart.
at least not completely.
Saturday, June 13, 2009
summer.<3
a GREAT school year. i've met so many amazing people, and they've made such an impact on my life. thanks to everyone who put up with me this WHOLE year, because i know how hard it is! :(
mm, i'm definitely going to miss everyone.
straight A's, i'm happy.
thanks penhall!
I LOVE SUMMER.
call me to hang out babe. <3
mm, i'm definitely going to miss everyone.
straight A's, i'm happy.
thanks penhall!
I LOVE SUMMER.
call me to hang out babe. <3
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
bait&release.
gotta get outta here,
i'm stuck inside this rut that i fell into by mistake
gotta get out of here.
i'm begging you,
i'm begging you,
i'm begging you to be my escape.
i'm stuck inside this rut that i fell into by mistake
gotta get out of here.
i'm begging you,
i'm begging you,
i'm begging you to be my escape.
Monday, June 8, 2009
i just want you you you you you.
gabe bondoc singing that is amazing.
sighsigh.
i want to sing that with a boy on the uke.
damnit vincent, LEARN IT ALREADY. :)
hahahaaa.
i'm debating on whether i should trust what people say to me.
sometimes its a load of crap.
but i dont want to be like, cynical either.
maybe its time to just let it go.
but i don't want to.
oh god.
i am the most indecisive person ever.
how do you guys put up with me? JESSICA?!
finals weeek.
i am indifferent.
let's get this over with.
summer summer summer come.
i can't wait for camp.
to see everyone.
<3
its going to be awesome.
:)
A FOLLOW UP ON WHAT JESSICA TOLD ME.
girl, you must be crazy to think i just got to where i am today. i'm sorry if i'm friendly, but it doesn't mean things are easy. maybe more people know me cos my sisters are HTs but its not like its something special. don't you dare say i don't work for my praise/honors/shit becuase that is BULL. BULL BULL BULL. i work my ass off. i don't need recognition for it. i'm just there to do what i do and have fun. i'm sorry you're not included in our supposed "COOL" group, but chill out. don't go attacking people saying things you don't know. you end up looking dumb. if you want to hang out with us, just hang out. its not like we're exclusive.
i need a new video to record. :|
but at least summer's coming! :)
sighsigh.
i want to sing that with a boy on the uke.
damnit vincent, LEARN IT ALREADY. :)
hahahaaa.
i'm debating on whether i should trust what people say to me.
sometimes its a load of crap.
but i dont want to be like, cynical either.
maybe its time to just let it go.
but i don't want to.
oh god.
i am the most indecisive person ever.
how do you guys put up with me? JESSICA?!
finals weeek.
i am indifferent.
let's get this over with.
summer summer summer come.
i can't wait for camp.
to see everyone.
<3
its going to be awesome.
:)
A FOLLOW UP ON WHAT JESSICA TOLD ME.
girl, you must be crazy to think i just got to where i am today. i'm sorry if i'm friendly, but it doesn't mean things are easy. maybe more people know me cos my sisters are HTs but its not like its something special. don't you dare say i don't work for my praise/honors/shit becuase that is BULL. BULL BULL BULL. i work my ass off. i don't need recognition for it. i'm just there to do what i do and have fun. i'm sorry you're not included in our supposed "COOL" group, but chill out. don't go attacking people saying things you don't know. you end up looking dumb. if you want to hang out with us, just hang out. its not like we're exclusive.
i need a new video to record. :|
but at least summer's coming! :)
Saturday, June 6, 2009
i know very well.
today was a pretty fun day, spent the morning with JDN<3. we went to go eat crawfish at Cajun Corner, which i haven't had in the longest time. yumm yumm! haha we went back to her house, and worked off those calories playing WII . dude, it's so fun. boxing is so crazy! went old school and played DDR, which i haven't played since like 8th grade. i suck . :( oh well.
finals are coming up, so major studying this week.
lets study together guys! :)
this year, i've discovered that there are just some people who aren't worth my time. they don't deserve the kindess that i give. i don't expect them to reciprocate the same amount of kindness, but its amazing how things can change within a couple of hours. i think those are the kind of people that in end, won't be there for you. even though i know this, i'm still nice. idk, kindness and forgiveness are good, and everyone has some good in them. i've seen the good, so maybe its just a fluke that one time. whatever, we'll see.
i don't listen to what others say about you. well, i listen, but in the end, its me that makes the decision. i do what i want. i don't let what others affect what i do anymore.
at least there's one more week left.<3
finals are coming up, so major studying this week.
lets study together guys! :)
this year, i've discovered that there are just some people who aren't worth my time. they don't deserve the kindess that i give. i don't expect them to reciprocate the same amount of kindness, but its amazing how things can change within a couple of hours. i think those are the kind of people that in end, won't be there for you. even though i know this, i'm still nice. idk, kindness and forgiveness are good, and everyone has some good in them. i've seen the good, so maybe its just a fluke that one time. whatever, we'll see.
i don't listen to what others say about you. well, i listen, but in the end, its me that makes the decision. i do what i want. i don't let what others affect what i do anymore.
at least there's one more week left.<3
Friday, June 5, 2009
Wednesday, June 3, 2009
bittersweet.
got yearbook today.
i know summer's coming and school's ending.
i'm both happy and sad.
my birthday was great.
i love my friends<3
the show was fabulous.
it feels so good to do what i love.
and be able to show people what i can do.
i made troubadours again.
the list is waack. idk what is going on.
hopefully everything turns out okay.
it's really cold these days.
i need my summer sun.
where is my sunshine? :(
i know summer's coming and school's ending.
i'm both happy and sad.
my birthday was great.
i love my friends<3
the show was fabulous.
it feels so good to do what i love.
and be able to show people what i can do.
i made troubadours again.
the list is waack. idk what is going on.
hopefully everything turns out okay.
it's really cold these days.
i need my summer sun.
where is my sunshine? :(
Saturday, May 23, 2009
things you might not know about me.
this is from my myspace blog. :]
but i added more to the list.
enjoy!
1. Yes, I do have an older brother.
2. I like things that are spicy.
3. Especially spicy chips.
4. I used to obsess over my grades.
5. When I was in 3rd grade to 5th grade, I would always get C's in math.
6. I also had like extremely ugly writing that was unable to be deciphered.
7. I get hurt when the people I care about act rude/inconsiderate towards me.
8. And then I don't say anything about it.
9. I can never fully open up to any single person.
10. My full name is Lany Teresa Dao.
11. I am a total gamer.
12. Games that have shooting involved in it are the ones I enjoy.
13. Total camera whore.
14. When someone asks me to sing to them, I most likely won't do it.
15. I usually sing out of nowhere.
16. I don't like listening to recordings of myself.
17. There are always a lot of things on my mind.
18. At night before I go to sleep is when I think the most.
19. I like to talk to people at night because that's when they're not doing anything. (most of the time.)
20. The longest time I have talked on the phone was 4 hours.
21. When I first got my cell phone, I accumulated over 100 hours in less than half a year.
22. My favorite flowers are daisies.
23. I used to live in Santa Ana until I was five years old.
24. I fractured my right arm when I was four.
25. How did it happen? I fell off my bike when I wasn't even moving and had training wheels.
26. I look foward to Thieu Nhi on Saturday every week. It's my saving day.
27. I have never had my own room.
28. Cherry coke is my favorite soda.
29. I happen to think Coke tastes better than Pepsi.
30. I lose some respect for those who drink/smoke/drug.
31. I have only begun to learn that I can't make people do anything.
32. Reading for leisure is something I do. :)
33. Harry Potters are the best books ever!
34. I have cried during a Pokemon episode.
35. It's the one where Pikachu leaves Ash! :(
36. I am deathly afraid of any bug that crawls/flies.
37. I have never been obviously sunburnt.
38. The scariest rollercoaster I have been on is Xccelerator.
39. People call me a prude.
40. And I agree. Haha.
41. I am supposedly the good friend who will drive her drunk friends home from a party in the future.
42. So I was actually done with this, but I was stupid enough to click the "back" button.
43. Yes, I still happen to like Pokemon!
44. I can't snap my fingers. :(
45. I learned how to whistle by watching Dora the Explorer.
46. Chocolate chip ice cream is my favorite!
47. The only show that I can never miss an episode of is America's Next Top Model.
48. I was at St. Barbara School for 9 years.
49. I also ended up being the Salutatorian.
50. I tend to procrastinate sometimes.
51. But I think I work better when I procrastinate.
52. For example, when we had two weeks to do our D.C. scrapbook, I left mine to the last four days.
53. I ended up pulling off a 108. :)
54. Some people may say that I am a perfectionist.
55. In group projects, I am normally the one who does the most work.
56. But that's only because I don't fully trust the others to do it right.
57. When I was in elementary, I was referred to as Lyna's or Lyan's sister.
58. When I got to middle school, my teachers would call me Lyna or Lyan.
59. The only good thing about that was I got candy everytime they didn't say my name correctly.
60. After today, my summer vacation will be officially over.
61. Boys who can sing are hot.
62. It's also hot if they can play a musical instrument. (preferably guitar or piano.)
63. And if they're athletic, it's a plus. :)
64. I got my first kiss on the cheek when I was three from a boy across the street named Mark.
65. I hit him after he did it.
66. I wonder what he looks like now.
67. Lame jokes are really funny.
68. But then again, I laugh really easily. Sometimes at nothing.
69. I don't get why people think it's funny to laugh at this number. It's stupid.
70. At age 12, I was exposed to all the dirty minded stuff and the bad words.
71. I have been singing ever since I was like... 5.
72. Maybe one day I'll get discovered. :)
73. My dream vacation to go to Orlando, Florida and spend all of my days at Disney World and Universal Studios.
74. I used to be afraid of Harry Potters when I was younger.
75. The cause of this was walking into the theater showing the first movie at the moment where Voldemort is sucking the unicorn's blood.
76. Cranium is the absolute best board game ever. :D
77. I am very loud for a small girl.
78. PE is my least favorite subject.
79. I hope to appear on Disney Channel one day.
80. Yes, I have failed a test before.
81. I got a 68 on my science test.
82. I have never gotten a detention in my whole life.
83. I have had to look back at this list to make sure I didn't repeat anything. Tehee.
84. I'm one of those freaks who like manga.
85. The only ones I have actually read are Fruits Basket, DN Angel, and Azumanga Daioh.
86. I am stubborn.
87. I love water games.
88. I am a full-fledged Thieu Nhi Geek.
89. My favorite color varies.
90. I'm the type of girl who likes to dress up when she can. :)
91. The longest I have ever had my hair was down to my chest.
92. And then I chopped it off all the way up to my neck.
93. I used to dislike tying up my hair very much.
94. Lately I've been doing it more often.
95. I am a scary person when you piss me off.
96. Disappoinment is something I fear from my parents.
97. The only makeup I actually wear is lipgloss.
98. When I was in Au Nhi, I performed a Christmas song on stage in front of everyone and stopped in the middle of it.
99. I know how to laugh at myself.
100. Apparently, I am a very difficult person to surprise.
101. It is sometimes hard for me to accept compliments.
102. I have dealt with way too many two-faced people in my life.
103. Some of my nicknames include: Toastie Waffles, Lonestar, and Boy.
104. I have never seen my hair with curls.
105. I used to wear my glasses all the time.
106. But I got contacts this year.
107. I hate the feeling when I can't help someone with their problems.
108. I tend to say sorry even though something's not my fault.
109. I can be very sarcastic.
110. My favorite video game is Paper Mario.
111. When I was five, I cut my own hair because I wanted to look like Sailor Mercury.
112. Although I have siblings, it sometimes gets lonely in the house.
113. I hate being disappointed.
114. It saddens me when someone breaks their promise.
115. My big pores bother me.
116. So do my blackheads.
117. I am afraid to begin driving.
118. The piano is a beautiful instrument, but I will never have the discipline to learn how to play it.
119. I took lessons when I was younger, but I never wanted to practice.
120. I have spent 4 hours at Barnes and Noble just reading.
121. Impressing people is something I like to do.
122. People who say that they are emo bother me.
123. Especially if they cut themselves.
124. I have little sympathy towards them.
125. Girls who dress provocatively should be thrown into a church.
126. I stick to my values and morals.
127. I managed to survive my first day of high school.
128. I have recently discovered that I can walk really fast in sandals.
129. My favorite band is Relient K. :)
130. Sometimes the sun is just too hot.
131. People say I look like my sisters.
132. I see no resemblence.
133. My first and only concert was an Nsync one.
134. It was when they were still coool.
135. I have acrophobia.
136. I don't want to do anything in the medical business.
137. I took a Vietnamese class for 6 years, although I don't think it did much except improve my writing.
138. I own a number of spelling bee awards.
139. Calvin and Hobbes is my absolute favorite comic ever.
140. My first CD that I owned was a Powerpuff Girl Soundtrack.
141. Don't poke me. I'm very ticklish.
142. People say I'm creative.
143. I don't hate writing essays.
144. They just come easily to me after a couple minutes of thought.
145. I always manage to misplace my glasses.
146. If I don't do something right away, I tend to forget about it sometimes.
147. After knowing people for some time, I can read them easily.
148. I get a warm feeling when I make someone smile.
149. I enjoy giving Christmas presents.
150. The reaction from the people I give gifts to make me smile.
151. I have this weird memory where I can remember people's houses and describe it in full detail.
152. Paris, Tokyo, Sydney, Rome, and Venice are one of the many places I want to visit before I die.
153. Breaking the law isn't something I like doing.
154. You will never see me cross the street when the light is red.
155. I would rather get yelled at by someone than disappoint them.
156. I get addicted to things very easily.
157. Another thing to do before I die-- visit every Disney theme park in the world.
158. I have never been able to keep up with writing in a diary after one day.
159. Yes, I am one of those abnormal people who are left handed.
160. I fear losing friendships that I value.
161. I hate the feeling I get when I'm not good enough for someone/thing.
162. I wonder how people can be so mean sometimes.
163. I have a problem with putting myself down.
164. I don't think I'm that pretty, despite what others say.
165. I have always been second best to my sisters because Iwas younger.
166. Sports aren't really my thing.
167. I had my braces on for 1 1/2 years, but it was realy supposed to be two years.
168. All four of my wisdom teeth have gone bye-bye.
169. I had ninja turtle bedsheets. :D
170. I dont always confront my problems.
171. Thunderstorms give me the jitters.
172. I would rather get run over than be yelled at by Lyna.
173. My family goes to Las Vegas at least 2 times a year.
174. I love camping.
175. My competitive streak can be nasty.
176. It's easy for me to be friends with people who can make me laugh.
177. I always have at least one stuffed animal on my bed.
178. I talk to them. :)
179. I often tell people I'm going to punch them in the face.
180. But apparently, it's just all talk.
181. I don't like being mad at people.
182. And I dont like it when people are mad at me.
183. I'm pretty artsy.
184. Curse of Monkey Island is the best game ever!
185. Everyone should read The Truth About Forever.
186. When people know me well, they know when I'm lying about if everything is okay.
187. It takes very little to make me happy.
188. The best way to win people's hearts is with a smile.
189. I always get a weird feeling in my tummy when something's wrong.
190. I used toplay Maplesory.
191. I only lasted up to level 25.
192. Bananas are probably the only fruit I don't really like.
193. Scrapbooking is one of those things I can do for hours.
194. It's very easy to win my heart.
195. My favorite Pooh Bear & Friends character is Piglet.
196. I used to think he was a girl because he's pink!
197. Songs with stupid lyrics annoy me.
198. My cellphone is still alive after the many times I've dropped it.
199. I prefer popsicles over ice cream.
200. I am finally yellow.
201. I am not a fake person.
202. I just don't say things that are really mean.
203. I will never understand why people are deliberately mean.
204. How do they live with themselves?
205. My very first choir concert ever was on October 26. :)
206. I am finally gaining more confidence in my own voice.
207. There are only so many things I keep to myself.
208. I dislike it when people only think of themselves.
209. I enjoy doodling.
210. My hometown is Santa Ana.
211. I have two houses.
212. Ghost stories freak the crap out of me.
213. I love people.
214. Meeting new people is so fun. Especially at DHNS! :)
215. I'm pretty outgoing, but I can be shy.
216. Obnoxious people piss me off.
217. FVHS Choir is the absolute best. :D
218. I work at Kumon.
219. Apparently, I look better with bangs.
220. I'm pretty restricted when it comes to going out.
221. I don't mind much because I still get to see my friends.
222. New school supplies are awesome.
223. I was on St. Barbara's Academic Decathlon Team for 2 years.
224. Last year, I placed 3 in the English category.
225. People say that it must be fun to be me.
226. I say that it's not as great as it's hyped up to be.
227. I really want to travel.
228. I like to feel safe.
229. After hearing Viking's story, I am now scared to cross the street.
230. I like thoughtful gifts. :)
231. The only dog I've ever actually played with is my uncle's dog, which is the cutest thing ever.
232. I happen to really like my boyfriend.
233. I like to wear ao dai. :] They're soo pretty!
234. I got a 4.2 the first semester of my freshman year.
235. I've been told I act older than my age.
236. I rarely watch TV now.
237. If anything, I only watch CW.
238. I laugh over the littlest things.
239. Somehow I manage to stay put together with all the things I deal with.
240. I really like the colors pink and yellow, but they're not my favorite colors.
241. One day I will donate my hair to cancer.
242. But first I have to grow it out and resist the urge to cut it.
243. Ken says that I'm the chinkiest asian around when I laugh.
244. At lunch, I sit under a tree.
245. I've only been to the zoo like... once.
246. My writing is supposedly like a computer.
247. All of my letters and words are spaced evenly and I write in between the lines.
248. Sixth period is probably my favorite part of the school day.
249. Pink, yellow, and orange daises are the prettiest.
250. I quit my job at Kumon.
251. This year, I wasn't all excited about counting my money I got for Tet.
252. I go up to Riverside to visit my grandparent's at least 3-5 times a year.
253. Heaven's Delight is delicious!
254. I like to eat vanillaa with strawberries and chocolate syrup and graham crackers!
255. I recently got a new comforter.
256. It's pink! <3
257. Despite that fact that I'm afraid of dogs, I coudn't help but cuddle with my uncle's shitsu.
258. I have a blue iPod video nano. :]
259. When I grow up, I want to furnish my house with all IKEA stuff.
260. I might play tennis next year!
261. White chocolate macadamia nut cookies are yummmmy!
262. I like to play Diner Dash and Cake Mania.
263. There are only so many people I have sung directly to.
264. Lyndon calls me Princess Daisy.
265. I got at 4.2 my first semester! :]
266. My first screen name was Babybluegirl527.
267. I got it when I was like.. 10.
268. I really like to bake.
269. Tati says my brownies are bombbb. :]
270. I used to be called "Laysian."
271. I"m not much of a going to the movies person.
272. I usually spend English class doodling.
273. Roger can always make me laugh just by looking at me.
274. The littlest things make me happy, such as a really fast moving cloud. :]
275. I call myself a dinosaur a lot.
276. A jigglypuff, too.
277. Ew, Eminem.
278. "Buy You a Drank" is probably one the dumbest songs I have ever heard.
279. I was student council secretary in seventh grade.
280. I appreciate life more than others do.
281. Even though I have a facebook, I don't really know how to use it.
282. It is very rare that my name will be pronounced correctly when you first read it not HEAR it.
283. I've gotten Lanny, Laney, La... etc.
284. I don't really mind, but it's pronounced LAH-NEE. TVYM.
285. I live in a two story house.
286. People dont' always understand why I do things.
287. I have my reasons.
288. I wish to have at least two kids.
289. I am a packrat.
290. I have read the whole Sweet Valley Twins and baby Sitter's Club series.
291. I am not shallow.
292. Don't listen to my friends when they call me a freak on the dance floor, please.
293. I eat a lot. Sometimes. Okay. Almost never.
294. I tend to bite my nails. Or the skin around my nails.
295. I used to be in love with gel pens.
296. I rarely blow dry my hair.
297. Although, I have been straightening it more lately.
298. When I went to SBS, I went to mass three times a week.
299. Now I only go twice a week.
300. I've been told I"m too nice.
301. I eat my Quaker Oats Cheddar Snack Mix in a specific order.
302. First it's pretzels, cheez-its, bagels, chex, and then cereal.
303. I have finally gone to Legoland, and it's not all that great.
304. I MADE TROUBADOURS. :]
305. I also got Most Improved Female Singer in Concert Choir my freshman year.
306. I hardly wear my glasses.
307. I'm one of those people who get excited about going to the library.
308. Yotsuba&! is hilarious.
309. I think I live vicariously through books like Gossip Girl and A-list.
310. I don't think I'm that great of a girlfriend or person in general.
311. School is finally out! :)
312. I feel uncomfortable around people I feel that are unapprochable.
313. I've taken a liking to baking.
314. Victoria's Secret PINK hoodies are my new obsession.
315. I plan on doing choir all four years of my high school education.
316. I twirl my hair and dart my eyes around when I'm nervous.
317. That makes me a horrible liar.
318. I enjoy looking through old photo albums.
319. I have a wooden box where I save all my birthday and christmas cards I receive.
320. You know those convereses, I got in the sixth grade? I still fit them.
321. Treat me with a Marie Callendar's strawberry pie.
322. I have watched all ten season of Friends at least three times.
323. Lately, I have insomia.
324. I finally went to the OC Fair for the first time this year.
325. I love going to HB Library And coming home with like 20 books to read.
326. When I give gifts, I put a lot of thought into them.
327. I'm trying to grow my hair out to be as long as my butt.
328. When I'm really upset I tend to talk a lot faster.
329. I'd rather not have people worry about me because I feel like a burden.
330. There's a lot more to me than you think.
331. One day, I want to have a nice picnic in a park with the red and white checkered blanket and all that good stuff. :)
332. If you need me to, I will listen.
333. I like wading/playing in the water, rather than swimming.
334. My feet are a size 7. :)
335. I seriously hate chemistry.
336. I learned how to curl my hair with a straightener!
337. My first birthday party EVER was my sweetsixteen at Buca De Beppo.
338. My comforter is pink!
339. I rarely get mad at people and actually do something about it.
340. People tell me I am too nice.
341. I think I might want teach Confirmation when I get older.
342. People in choir like to imitate me. "HI I'M LANY! LAlALALALLAalalA"
343. BOTH of my T-STRAP sandals have ripped becuase someone was trying to step on them while i was walking. "COUGH KEVIN LE VINCENT SNOW COUGH"
344. SPring 09 Choir Tour I went to Lousiana and Texas.
345. I've partied on a steamboat along the Mississippi River.
346. I ate alligator for the first time in Louisiana!
347. I have been to Catalina Island.
348. Because school takes up so much time, I haven't really been watching TV.
349. I occasionally make youtube videos.
350. fweelalany.
351. I have back dimples
352. I am currently single again.
353. I quit my job at Kumon last year becuase it got too busy with school.
354. Now I need a job again. :(
but i added more to the list.
enjoy!
1. Yes, I do have an older brother.
2. I like things that are spicy.
3. Especially spicy chips.
4. I used to obsess over my grades.
5. When I was in 3rd grade to 5th grade, I would always get C's in math.
6. I also had like extremely ugly writing that was unable to be deciphered.
7. I get hurt when the people I care about act rude/inconsiderate towards me.
8. And then I don't say anything about it.
9. I can never fully open up to any single person.
10. My full name is Lany Teresa Dao.
11. I am a total gamer.
12. Games that have shooting involved in it are the ones I enjoy.
13. Total camera whore.
14. When someone asks me to sing to them, I most likely won't do it.
15. I usually sing out of nowhere.
16. I don't like listening to recordings of myself.
17. There are always a lot of things on my mind.
18. At night before I go to sleep is when I think the most.
19. I like to talk to people at night because that's when they're not doing anything. (most of the time.)
20. The longest time I have talked on the phone was 4 hours.
21. When I first got my cell phone, I accumulated over 100 hours in less than half a year.
22. My favorite flowers are daisies.
23. I used to live in Santa Ana until I was five years old.
24. I fractured my right arm when I was four.
25. How did it happen? I fell off my bike when I wasn't even moving and had training wheels.
26. I look foward to Thieu Nhi on Saturday every week. It's my saving day.
27. I have never had my own room.
28. Cherry coke is my favorite soda.
29. I happen to think Coke tastes better than Pepsi.
30. I lose some respect for those who drink/smoke/drug.
31. I have only begun to learn that I can't make people do anything.
32. Reading for leisure is something I do. :)
33. Harry Potters are the best books ever!
34. I have cried during a Pokemon episode.
35. It's the one where Pikachu leaves Ash! :(
36. I am deathly afraid of any bug that crawls/flies.
37. I have never been obviously sunburnt.
38. The scariest rollercoaster I have been on is Xccelerator.
39. People call me a prude.
40. And I agree. Haha.
41. I am supposedly the good friend who will drive her drunk friends home from a party in the future.
42. So I was actually done with this, but I was stupid enough to click the "back" button.
43. Yes, I still happen to like Pokemon!
44. I can't snap my fingers. :(
45. I learned how to whistle by watching Dora the Explorer.
46. Chocolate chip ice cream is my favorite!
47. The only show that I can never miss an episode of is America's Next Top Model.
48. I was at St. Barbara School for 9 years.
49. I also ended up being the Salutatorian.
50. I tend to procrastinate sometimes.
51. But I think I work better when I procrastinate.
52. For example, when we had two weeks to do our D.C. scrapbook, I left mine to the last four days.
53. I ended up pulling off a 108. :)
54. Some people may say that I am a perfectionist.
55. In group projects, I am normally the one who does the most work.
56. But that's only because I don't fully trust the others to do it right.
57. When I was in elementary, I was referred to as Lyna's or Lyan's sister.
58. When I got to middle school, my teachers would call me Lyna or Lyan.
59. The only good thing about that was I got candy everytime they didn't say my name correctly.
60. After today, my summer vacation will be officially over.
61. Boys who can sing are hot.
62. It's also hot if they can play a musical instrument. (preferably guitar or piano.)
63. And if they're athletic, it's a plus. :)
64. I got my first kiss on the cheek when I was three from a boy across the street named Mark.
65. I hit him after he did it.
66. I wonder what he looks like now.
67. Lame jokes are really funny.
68. But then again, I laugh really easily. Sometimes at nothing.
69. I don't get why people think it's funny to laugh at this number. It's stupid.
70. At age 12, I was exposed to all the dirty minded stuff and the bad words.
71. I have been singing ever since I was like... 5.
72. Maybe one day I'll get discovered. :)
73. My dream vacation to go to Orlando, Florida and spend all of my days at Disney World and Universal Studios.
74. I used to be afraid of Harry Potters when I was younger.
75. The cause of this was walking into the theater showing the first movie at the moment where Voldemort is sucking the unicorn's blood.
76. Cranium is the absolute best board game ever. :D
77. I am very loud for a small girl.
78. PE is my least favorite subject.
79. I hope to appear on Disney Channel one day.
80. Yes, I have failed a test before.
81. I got a 68 on my science test.
82. I have never gotten a detention in my whole life.
83. I have had to look back at this list to make sure I didn't repeat anything. Tehee.
84. I'm one of those freaks who like manga.
85. The only ones I have actually read are Fruits Basket, DN Angel, and Azumanga Daioh.
86. I am stubborn.
87. I love water games.
88. I am a full-fledged Thieu Nhi Geek.
89. My favorite color varies.
90. I'm the type of girl who likes to dress up when she can. :)
91. The longest I have ever had my hair was down to my chest.
92. And then I chopped it off all the way up to my neck.
93. I used to dislike tying up my hair very much.
94. Lately I've been doing it more often.
95. I am a scary person when you piss me off.
96. Disappoinment is something I fear from my parents.
97. The only makeup I actually wear is lipgloss.
98. When I was in Au Nhi, I performed a Christmas song on stage in front of everyone and stopped in the middle of it.
99. I know how to laugh at myself.
100. Apparently, I am a very difficult person to surprise.
101. It is sometimes hard for me to accept compliments.
102. I have dealt with way too many two-faced people in my life.
103. Some of my nicknames include: Toastie Waffles, Lonestar, and Boy.
104. I have never seen my hair with curls.
105. I used to wear my glasses all the time.
106. But I got contacts this year.
107. I hate the feeling when I can't help someone with their problems.
108. I tend to say sorry even though something's not my fault.
109. I can be very sarcastic.
110. My favorite video game is Paper Mario.
111. When I was five, I cut my own hair because I wanted to look like Sailor Mercury.
112. Although I have siblings, it sometimes gets lonely in the house.
113. I hate being disappointed.
114. It saddens me when someone breaks their promise.
115. My big pores bother me.
116. So do my blackheads.
117. I am afraid to begin driving.
118. The piano is a beautiful instrument, but I will never have the discipline to learn how to play it.
119. I took lessons when I was younger, but I never wanted to practice.
120. I have spent 4 hours at Barnes and Noble just reading.
121. Impressing people is something I like to do.
122. People who say that they are emo bother me.
123. Especially if they cut themselves.
124. I have little sympathy towards them.
125. Girls who dress provocatively should be thrown into a church.
126. I stick to my values and morals.
127. I managed to survive my first day of high school.
128. I have recently discovered that I can walk really fast in sandals.
129. My favorite band is Relient K. :)
130. Sometimes the sun is just too hot.
131. People say I look like my sisters.
132. I see no resemblence.
133. My first and only concert was an Nsync one.
134. It was when they were still coool.
135. I have acrophobia.
136. I don't want to do anything in the medical business.
137. I took a Vietnamese class for 6 years, although I don't think it did much except improve my writing.
138. I own a number of spelling bee awards.
139. Calvin and Hobbes is my absolute favorite comic ever.
140. My first CD that I owned was a Powerpuff Girl Soundtrack.
141. Don't poke me. I'm very ticklish.
142. People say I'm creative.
143. I don't hate writing essays.
144. They just come easily to me after a couple minutes of thought.
145. I always manage to misplace my glasses.
146. If I don't do something right away, I tend to forget about it sometimes.
147. After knowing people for some time, I can read them easily.
148. I get a warm feeling when I make someone smile.
149. I enjoy giving Christmas presents.
150. The reaction from the people I give gifts to make me smile.
151. I have this weird memory where I can remember people's houses and describe it in full detail.
152. Paris, Tokyo, Sydney, Rome, and Venice are one of the many places I want to visit before I die.
153. Breaking the law isn't something I like doing.
154. You will never see me cross the street when the light is red.
155. I would rather get yelled at by someone than disappoint them.
156. I get addicted to things very easily.
157. Another thing to do before I die-- visit every Disney theme park in the world.
158. I have never been able to keep up with writing in a diary after one day.
159. Yes, I am one of those abnormal people who are left handed.
160. I fear losing friendships that I value.
161. I hate the feeling I get when I'm not good enough for someone/thing.
162. I wonder how people can be so mean sometimes.
163. I have a problem with putting myself down.
164. I don't think I'm that pretty, despite what others say.
165. I have always been second best to my sisters because Iwas younger.
166. Sports aren't really my thing.
167. I had my braces on for 1 1/2 years, but it was realy supposed to be two years.
168. All four of my wisdom teeth have gone bye-bye.
169. I had ninja turtle bedsheets. :D
170. I dont always confront my problems.
171. Thunderstorms give me the jitters.
172. I would rather get run over than be yelled at by Lyna.
173. My family goes to Las Vegas at least 2 times a year.
174. I love camping.
175. My competitive streak can be nasty.
176. It's easy for me to be friends with people who can make me laugh.
177. I always have at least one stuffed animal on my bed.
178. I talk to them. :)
179. I often tell people I'm going to punch them in the face.
180. But apparently, it's just all talk.
181. I don't like being mad at people.
182. And I dont like it when people are mad at me.
183. I'm pretty artsy.
184. Curse of Monkey Island is the best game ever!
185. Everyone should read The Truth About Forever.
186. When people know me well, they know when I'm lying about if everything is okay.
187. It takes very little to make me happy.
188. The best way to win people's hearts is with a smile.
189. I always get a weird feeling in my tummy when something's wrong.
190. I used toplay Maplesory.
191. I only lasted up to level 25.
192. Bananas are probably the only fruit I don't really like.
193. Scrapbooking is one of those things I can do for hours.
194. It's very easy to win my heart.
195. My favorite Pooh Bear & Friends character is Piglet.
196. I used to think he was a girl because he's pink!
197. Songs with stupid lyrics annoy me.
198. My cellphone is still alive after the many times I've dropped it.
199. I prefer popsicles over ice cream.
200. I am finally yellow.
201. I am not a fake person.
202. I just don't say things that are really mean.
203. I will never understand why people are deliberately mean.
204. How do they live with themselves?
205. My very first choir concert ever was on October 26. :)
206. I am finally gaining more confidence in my own voice.
207. There are only so many things I keep to myself.
208. I dislike it when people only think of themselves.
209. I enjoy doodling.
210. My hometown is Santa Ana.
211. I have two houses.
212. Ghost stories freak the crap out of me.
213. I love people.
214. Meeting new people is so fun. Especially at DHNS! :)
215. I'm pretty outgoing, but I can be shy.
216. Obnoxious people piss me off.
217. FVHS Choir is the absolute best. :D
218. I work at Kumon.
219. Apparently, I look better with bangs.
220. I'm pretty restricted when it comes to going out.
221. I don't mind much because I still get to see my friends.
222. New school supplies are awesome.
223. I was on St. Barbara's Academic Decathlon Team for 2 years.
224. Last year, I placed 3 in the English category.
225. People say that it must be fun to be me.
226. I say that it's not as great as it's hyped up to be.
227. I really want to travel.
228. I like to feel safe.
229. After hearing Viking's story, I am now scared to cross the street.
230. I like thoughtful gifts. :)
231. The only dog I've ever actually played with is my uncle's dog, which is the cutest thing ever.
232. I happen to really like my boyfriend.
233. I like to wear ao dai. :] They're soo pretty!
234. I got a 4.2 the first semester of my freshman year.
235. I've been told I act older than my age.
236. I rarely watch TV now.
237. If anything, I only watch CW.
238. I laugh over the littlest things.
239. Somehow I manage to stay put together with all the things I deal with.
240. I really like the colors pink and yellow, but they're not my favorite colors.
241. One day I will donate my hair to cancer.
242. But first I have to grow it out and resist the urge to cut it.
243. Ken says that I'm the chinkiest asian around when I laugh.
244. At lunch, I sit under a tree.
245. I've only been to the zoo like... once.
246. My writing is supposedly like a computer.
247. All of my letters and words are spaced evenly and I write in between the lines.
248. Sixth period is probably my favorite part of the school day.
249. Pink, yellow, and orange daises are the prettiest.
250. I quit my job at Kumon.
251. This year, I wasn't all excited about counting my money I got for Tet.
252. I go up to Riverside to visit my grandparent's at least 3-5 times a year.
253. Heaven's Delight is delicious!
254. I like to eat vanillaa with strawberries and chocolate syrup and graham crackers!
255. I recently got a new comforter.
256. It's pink! <3
257. Despite that fact that I'm afraid of dogs, I coudn't help but cuddle with my uncle's shitsu.
258. I have a blue iPod video nano. :]
259. When I grow up, I want to furnish my house with all IKEA stuff.
260. I might play tennis next year!
261. White chocolate macadamia nut cookies are yummmmy!
262. I like to play Diner Dash and Cake Mania.
263. There are only so many people I have sung directly to.
264. Lyndon calls me Princess Daisy.
265. I got at 4.2 my first semester! :]
266. My first screen name was Babybluegirl527.
267. I got it when I was like.. 10.
268. I really like to bake.
269. Tati says my brownies are bombbb. :]
270. I used to be called "Laysian."
271. I"m not much of a going to the movies person.
272. I usually spend English class doodling.
273. Roger can always make me laugh just by looking at me.
274. The littlest things make me happy, such as a really fast moving cloud. :]
275. I call myself a dinosaur a lot.
276. A jigglypuff, too.
277. Ew, Eminem.
278. "Buy You a Drank" is probably one the dumbest songs I have ever heard.
279. I was student council secretary in seventh grade.
280. I appreciate life more than others do.
281. Even though I have a facebook, I don't really know how to use it.
282. It is very rare that my name will be pronounced correctly when you first read it not HEAR it.
283. I've gotten Lanny, Laney, La... etc.
284. I don't really mind, but it's pronounced LAH-NEE. TVYM.
285. I live in a two story house.
286. People dont' always understand why I do things.
287. I have my reasons.
288. I wish to have at least two kids.
289. I am a packrat.
290. I have read the whole Sweet Valley Twins and baby Sitter's Club series.
291. I am not shallow.
292. Don't listen to my friends when they call me a freak on the dance floor, please.
293. I eat a lot. Sometimes. Okay. Almost never.
294. I tend to bite my nails. Or the skin around my nails.
295. I used to be in love with gel pens.
296. I rarely blow dry my hair.
297. Although, I have been straightening it more lately.
298. When I went to SBS, I went to mass three times a week.
299. Now I only go twice a week.
300. I've been told I"m too nice.
301. I eat my Quaker Oats Cheddar Snack Mix in a specific order.
302. First it's pretzels, cheez-its, bagels, chex, and then cereal.
303. I have finally gone to Legoland, and it's not all that great.
304. I MADE TROUBADOURS. :]
305. I also got Most Improved Female Singer in Concert Choir my freshman year.
306. I hardly wear my glasses.
307. I'm one of those people who get excited about going to the library.
308. Yotsuba&! is hilarious.
309. I think I live vicariously through books like Gossip Girl and A-list.
310. I don't think I'm that great of a girlfriend or person in general.
311. School is finally out! :)
312. I feel uncomfortable around people I feel that are unapprochable.
313. I've taken a liking to baking.
314. Victoria's Secret PINK hoodies are my new obsession.
315. I plan on doing choir all four years of my high school education.
316. I twirl my hair and dart my eyes around when I'm nervous.
317. That makes me a horrible liar.
318. I enjoy looking through old photo albums.
319. I have a wooden box where I save all my birthday and christmas cards I receive.
320. You know those convereses, I got in the sixth grade? I still fit them.
321. Treat me with a Marie Callendar's strawberry pie.
322. I have watched all ten season of Friends at least three times.
323. Lately, I have insomia.
324. I finally went to the OC Fair for the first time this year.
325. I love going to HB Library And coming home with like 20 books to read.
326. When I give gifts, I put a lot of thought into them.
327. I'm trying to grow my hair out to be as long as my butt.
328. When I'm really upset I tend to talk a lot faster.
329. I'd rather not have people worry about me because I feel like a burden.
330. There's a lot more to me than you think.
331. One day, I want to have a nice picnic in a park with the red and white checkered blanket and all that good stuff. :)
332. If you need me to, I will listen.
333. I like wading/playing in the water, rather than swimming.
334. My feet are a size 7. :)
335. I seriously hate chemistry.
336. I learned how to curl my hair with a straightener!
337. My first birthday party EVER was my sweetsixteen at Buca De Beppo.
338. My comforter is pink!
339. I rarely get mad at people and actually do something about it.
340. People tell me I am too nice.
341. I think I might want teach Confirmation when I get older.
342. People in choir like to imitate me. "HI I'M LANY! LAlALALALLAalalA"
343. BOTH of my T-STRAP sandals have ripped becuase someone was trying to step on them while i was walking. "COUGH KEVIN LE VINCENT SNOW COUGH"
344. SPring 09 Choir Tour I went to Lousiana and Texas.
345. I've partied on a steamboat along the Mississippi River.
346. I ate alligator for the first time in Louisiana!
347. I have been to Catalina Island.
348. Because school takes up so much time, I haven't really been watching TV.
349. I occasionally make youtube videos.
350. fweelalany.
351. I have back dimples
352. I am currently single again.
353. I quit my job at Kumon last year becuase it got too busy with school.
354. Now I need a job again. :(
Thursday, May 21, 2009
it's times
like when i really need someone, is when i know who my real friends are.
they know something's up before i say anything.
they know when i'm lying about me being okay.
it's a great feeling, to know that there are people who will be there for me. these are the people that are worth my time, and my kindness. i don't even have to know them for a while (george!) and they'll be there to offer a comforting hug. its sweet knowing that there are still wonderful human beings in the world.
today was pretty bad, i must say. things have been pretty much doing down hill this whole week, but i'm really hoping things are going up soon.
auditions today were so bad, i was really disappointed in myself and i came out crying. i can do better. i am better than what i performed.
but luckily, i have friends like kevin who buy me ice cream to try to make me feel better<3
i am in love with gentlemen don't, by gabe bondoc. that song seriously makes me melt. i love the piano cover by aj rafael. if some boy played that for me, i would fall in love. :) well, not really. but i would smile the whole way through.
mmmm. gabe gabe gabe.
lookuplookuplookupthinkup.
things will hopefully get better.
shitty week, but oh well.
pray. love. god.<3
they know something's up before i say anything.
they know when i'm lying about me being okay.
it's a great feeling, to know that there are people who will be there for me. these are the people that are worth my time, and my kindness. i don't even have to know them for a while (george!) and they'll be there to offer a comforting hug. its sweet knowing that there are still wonderful human beings in the world.
today was pretty bad, i must say. things have been pretty much doing down hill this whole week, but i'm really hoping things are going up soon.
auditions today were so bad, i was really disappointed in myself and i came out crying. i can do better. i am better than what i performed.
but luckily, i have friends like kevin who buy me ice cream to try to make me feel better<3
i am in love with gentlemen don't, by gabe bondoc. that song seriously makes me melt. i love the piano cover by aj rafael. if some boy played that for me, i would fall in love. :) well, not really. but i would smile the whole way through.
mmmm. gabe gabe gabe.
lookuplookuplookupthinkup.
things will hopefully get better.
shitty week, but oh well.
pray. love. god.<3
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
you've got a friend in me
we'll see how long that holds out for.
dinner party friday<3
20ish people going, which is great!
a night with my friends!
busy freakin week next week.
choir choir choir after school every day until 10.
auditions today.
were okay. kinda sucky, but whatever.
i freaking hate chemistry.
i do NOT know how to do anything.
makes me sad! :(
ONE MORE WEEK.<3
dinner party friday<3
20ish people going, which is great!
a night with my friends!
busy freakin week next week.
choir choir choir after school every day until 10.
auditions today.
were okay. kinda sucky, but whatever.
i freaking hate chemistry.
i do NOT know how to do anything.
makes me sad! :(
ONE MORE WEEK.<3
Monday, May 18, 2009
Where did my heart go missing
I've been trying to reach you but it's as if you don't want me near you anymore. I'm trying hard to understand your side but it amazes me how you can throw everything away so quickly. I would be lying if I said I wasn't happy because I am. Life has been good for me, even though you aren't a part of it anymore. Yes I do miss you but that doesn't really do much. It's your decision to be distanced and soon one day you will forget me. Whatever I had to offer wasn't enough to satisfy you and I'm sorry. I am not going to stop my life for your happiness. Not anymore. There's no more point in calling or trying because all my attempts are futile . You won't be able to hear the things that you've been waitig so long to come out of mouth. Your point came across rather clearly that you don't want anything to do with me and I'm fine. Because if anyone, it's going to be you that missed your chance.
Thursday, May 14, 2009
walking on sunshine.
i am happy happy happy. life is going good for me.
APexams are over, and i don't have to worry about them anymore.
Life is getting much easier, so its good.
My party dress came yesterday! It's so cute.
Today is my mommy's birthday and katie's birthday.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY to BOTH<3
I haven't really blogged lately.
I feel weird posting things of substance.
But these days have been getting much brighter.
I love my school friends.
I love choir.
I love life.
MAY 22 -- PARTY, please RSVP by WEDNESDAY .
MAY 29/30 -- CHOIR BROADWAY SHOW. please come<3 7:30 tickets on sale MAY 26th!
APexams are over, and i don't have to worry about them anymore.
Life is getting much easier, so its good.
My party dress came yesterday! It's so cute.
Today is my mommy's birthday and katie's birthday.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY to BOTH<3
I haven't really blogged lately.
I feel weird posting things of substance.
But these days have been getting much brighter.
I love my school friends.
I love choir.
I love life.
MAY 22 -- PARTY, please RSVP by WEDNESDAY .
MAY 29/30 -- CHOIR BROADWAY SHOW. please come<3 7:30 tickets on sale MAY 26th!
Friday, May 1, 2009
happy may. :)
good start off to this month of may.
jessica and vyvian's birthday. i really wanted to make jessica feel special today.
i love that girl so so so much. :)
sign, balloons, cake, and princess crown.<3
huong's birthday tomorrow. she is my best friend.
did you know? she has been my best friend for like. 4309582039824 years. :)
may.
birthday dinner.
broadway show.
mommy's day.
mommy's birthday.
brother's birthday.
ryan's birthday.
thang's birthday.
am i missing anything?
loveloveLOVE.
dance rehearsal from 8 - 12.
hopefully i can pull this tap dancing off. and swing dancing.
i love to dance though.
i don't think i'll ever get tired of it.
APtesting this friday, and its all over. i'll be able to relax and chill chill chill. :)
summer is coming = beaches.
jessica and vyvian's birthday. i really wanted to make jessica feel special today.
i love that girl so so so much. :)
sign, balloons, cake, and princess crown.<3
huong's birthday tomorrow. she is my best friend.
did you know? she has been my best friend for like. 4309582039824 years. :)
may.
birthday dinner.
broadway show.
mommy's day.
mommy's birthday.
brother's birthday.
ryan's birthday.
thang's birthday.
am i missing anything?
loveloveLOVE.
dance rehearsal from 8 - 12.
hopefully i can pull this tap dancing off. and swing dancing.
i love to dance though.
i don't think i'll ever get tired of it.
APtesting this friday, and its all over. i'll be able to relax and chill chill chill. :)
summer is coming = beaches.
Sunday, April 26, 2009
i don't like you anymore.
i am not sure anymore.
i wish i could be sure.
but i don't know anything.
this feeling is scary.
i wish i could be sure.
but i don't know anything.
this feeling is scary.
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
i tried to be chill but you're so hot that i melted.
this weather.
is hot.
i'm not sure if i like it.
lalala. i am scared. to do things.
cos i'm afraid of the outcome.
but i might regret it if i dont.
its weird how things feel so natural.
like i just fit into your arms.
its easy. it makes sense.
but i don't want it.
hmm, i'm thinking about ASB next year....
we'll see.
is hot.
i'm not sure if i like it.
lalala. i am scared. to do things.
cos i'm afraid of the outcome.
but i might regret it if i dont.
its weird how things feel so natural.
like i just fit into your arms.
its easy. it makes sense.
but i don't want it.
hmm, i'm thinking about ASB next year....
we'll see.
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
Friday, April 10, 2009
the heart.
is where my home is. it feels fabulous to be back in sunny california, where the majority of my friends and family are. texas and louisiana was pretty bomb though, i must say. winning all those trophies were so worth it, and bonding with so many people made it much more enjoyable. i think i needed that week away from the world. it gave me a better outlook on life, seeing all the nature that surrounds the city of natcitoches. We don't really get that kind of scenery around here in the OC, and it brought some serenity into my mind.
i love choir kids though.
love love love.
i find myself feeling overshadowed, like i'm not really good enough. i know there's always going to be someone better, but i really wish i could be the best. or at least be loved at what is my best. as much as i think about quitting troubadours next year, i honestly don't think i ever could. i love singing too much, its my passion and drive. despite the bursts of anger i get from zero and third everyday, it's what makes me happy. i may never be the best in the choir, or even close to the top, but it would be nice to be recognized once in a while. maybe its ridiculous of me to think this way, but i think thats how most people feel. its as if i don't really have a place there, and my absence wouldn't make much of a difference. my voice might not be of an angel or some nightingale, but its mine.
these mixed signals are rather odd, but i'm glad i have friends to work me through them. they say you're afraid, but i am too.
i find myself straying away from God. i need to somehow find my way back. i hope that getting confirmed next saturday will help me.
why do i find myself missing you, of all people?
i love choir kids though.
love love love.
i find myself feeling overshadowed, like i'm not really good enough. i know there's always going to be someone better, but i really wish i could be the best. or at least be loved at what is my best. as much as i think about quitting troubadours next year, i honestly don't think i ever could. i love singing too much, its my passion and drive. despite the bursts of anger i get from zero and third everyday, it's what makes me happy. i may never be the best in the choir, or even close to the top, but it would be nice to be recognized once in a while. maybe its ridiculous of me to think this way, but i think thats how most people feel. its as if i don't really have a place there, and my absence wouldn't make much of a difference. my voice might not be of an angel or some nightingale, but its mine.
these mixed signals are rather odd, but i'm glad i have friends to work me through them. they say you're afraid, but i am too.
i find myself straying away from God. i need to somehow find my way back. i hope that getting confirmed next saturday will help me.
why do i find myself missing you, of all people?
Tuesday, March 31, 2009
lost
camp was really fun. i was with huong and david vu. :) teammm domination! sorta. hahaha it was better than i thought it was going to be, considering how i didn'tlook foward to it. camp was actually good for me, helped me get away from reality a little bit. it went by rather quickly, and i'm glad to be back.
i did lose my voice, and i talk like a man. its really disgusting. i'm dying of a cough right now and hopefully i can sing tomorrow for golden state. i'm not going to be conceited and be like oh they need me to sing, but i am a part of the choir so i'm hoping it'll be better with me singing? i haven't sung for the past two days in choir, and my ears have listened a lot more.
my packing still has not begun for louisiana/texas tour, and i really need to get on it. we got our itineraries today, and there's so many things on the list that i'm excited for! :) tell me if you want a souvenir and i'll try to get you something special. teheeee.
i haven't approached this subject for a while. maybe its because i'm done with it? honestly, i don't think i am, but at the same time, things feel different. there is still a part of me that hopes for a little something, but i know in the back of my heart there's nothing there and probably wont ever be. i take each day as it comes, every little thing you do, and every feeling you give me. i've gotten used to you. i need to ignore whatever my heart says. i'm supposed to be over this and have moved on. i think i have.
but you don't make me bitter. in fact, its the exact opposite. you make me smile. its rather ridiculous of me to feel this way. i'm too nice, i guess, and i'm a sucker for those who are sweet. but this time i really am a sucker. becuase i fell for everything. everything you did or said. now that i think about it, at the time, it felt warm, but now its like all those things were just empty. i've never met a person quite like you, and i'm pretty sure i'll meet plenty more. the ones that just do things for the fun of it, and don't really care. the ones that bait and release. i honestly do not want to believe that thats the kind of person you are. i'm waiting for you to prove it to me. but for now, i choose to not dump my onesided "feelings" onto you.
i can't wait to be gone.
i did lose my voice, and i talk like a man. its really disgusting. i'm dying of a cough right now and hopefully i can sing tomorrow for golden state. i'm not going to be conceited and be like oh they need me to sing, but i am a part of the choir so i'm hoping it'll be better with me singing? i haven't sung for the past two days in choir, and my ears have listened a lot more.
my packing still has not begun for louisiana/texas tour, and i really need to get on it. we got our itineraries today, and there's so many things on the list that i'm excited for! :) tell me if you want a souvenir and i'll try to get you something special. teheeee.
i haven't approached this subject for a while. maybe its because i'm done with it? honestly, i don't think i am, but at the same time, things feel different. there is still a part of me that hopes for a little something, but i know in the back of my heart there's nothing there and probably wont ever be. i take each day as it comes, every little thing you do, and every feeling you give me. i've gotten used to you. i need to ignore whatever my heart says. i'm supposed to be over this and have moved on. i think i have.
but you don't make me bitter. in fact, its the exact opposite. you make me smile. its rather ridiculous of me to feel this way. i'm too nice, i guess, and i'm a sucker for those who are sweet. but this time i really am a sucker. becuase i fell for everything. everything you did or said. now that i think about it, at the time, it felt warm, but now its like all those things were just empty. i've never met a person quite like you, and i'm pretty sure i'll meet plenty more. the ones that just do things for the fun of it, and don't really care. the ones that bait and release. i honestly do not want to believe that thats the kind of person you are. i'm waiting for you to prove it to me. but for now, i choose to not dump my onesided "feelings" onto you.
i can't wait to be gone.
Friday, March 27, 2009
camping trip.
i'm at camp this weekend which i'm not too excited for.
hopefully it will turn out fun.
i have to do all my homework on Sunday, which I know I'll be too tired for.
two days of school next week.
and then louisiana.
joyjoyjoy.
too busy.
text me at camp okay? :)
byeee! <3
hopefully it will turn out fun.
i have to do all my homework on Sunday, which I know I'll be too tired for.
two days of school next week.
and then louisiana.
joyjoyjoy.
too busy.
text me at camp okay? :)
byeee! <3
Sunday, March 22, 2009
brace yourself.
right now, i feel like i need to get away from everyone, everything. i don't know why things are this hard. they shouldn't be. i'm sorry i don't fit into this perfect "lany" mold that you have for me. i am human. i err. i make mistakes. if you were my friend, you wouldn't yell at me for them and you wouldn't get all up on my ass about them. don't you dare go all preacher on me when you do the exact same thing in even more amounts than i do.
the thing is, i don't even feel myself anymore. i tried to do something to make myself happy, and i tried to do something to make him happy, but in the end, i always get bit in the ass about it. i'm the one that's call selfish and the one that's called a bitch. i feel so out of place right now, like so many people are upset with me because i've done one thing wrong. and its ridiculous because i thought it would be good for me. i'm supposed to be happy, and i'm supposed to feel free. instead, i feel judged and shamed like i'm some sort of felon.
what is this? what are these emotions running through me? i'm not sure of anything anymore. i need some sort of sign. i need God to guide me. i need my real friends to take care of me. but i want to be independent. i want to take care of myself. i don't want to rely so much on others. i'm trying so hard to do everything i can to be the person you want me to be, but it would be a lot easier if you would just accept me for who i am. stop passing judgement, stop acting like you do everything right in the world.
i'm sorry.
i need to pray. i need to smile. i need to feel happy. i need to get away.
BUT.
i am rather thankful for those who do understand, who don't judge me, and who do help me become a better person. <3
the thing is, i don't even feel myself anymore. i tried to do something to make myself happy, and i tried to do something to make him happy, but in the end, i always get bit in the ass about it. i'm the one that's call selfish and the one that's called a bitch. i feel so out of place right now, like so many people are upset with me because i've done one thing wrong. and its ridiculous because i thought it would be good for me. i'm supposed to be happy, and i'm supposed to feel free. instead, i feel judged and shamed like i'm some sort of felon.
what is this? what are these emotions running through me? i'm not sure of anything anymore. i need some sort of sign. i need God to guide me. i need my real friends to take care of me. but i want to be independent. i want to take care of myself. i don't want to rely so much on others. i'm trying so hard to do everything i can to be the person you want me to be, but it would be a lot easier if you would just accept me for who i am. stop passing judgement, stop acting like you do everything right in the world.
i'm sorry.
i need to pray. i need to smile. i need to feel happy. i need to get away.
BUT.
i am rather thankful for those who do understand, who don't judge me, and who do help me become a better person. <3
Saturday, March 21, 2009
real.
gender wars assembly, was alright. singing was :) it's a different feeling once i'm up there in front of everyone. before it began, i was super super nervous. i'm always afraid of messing up or not sounding great. but, i'm glad everything turned out the way it was planned.
i was in such a good mood by the end of the day.
it's funny how just one person can do that to you.
i smiled a real smile yesterday. i was truly happy yesterday.
i realized that i'm scared of getting hurt, but then again, who isn't? my fear keeps me from taking risks and chances that i feel i'll regret later on. but i don't want to make any rash decisions before i really know what's going on. when things aren't right, my mind goes into overdrive. people tell me i should be careful or forget, but somehow i can't. i'm trying to be cautious and wary, but in the end, it's not like i have anything to lose anymore.
it doesn't work if you do it to every other girl,
but then again, maybe i am just another girl.
i was in such a good mood by the end of the day.
it's funny how just one person can do that to you.
i smiled a real smile yesterday. i was truly happy yesterday.
i realized that i'm scared of getting hurt, but then again, who isn't? my fear keeps me from taking risks and chances that i feel i'll regret later on. but i don't want to make any rash decisions before i really know what's going on. when things aren't right, my mind goes into overdrive. people tell me i should be careful or forget, but somehow i can't. i'm trying to be cautious and wary, but in the end, it's not like i have anything to lose anymore.
it doesn't work if you do it to every other girl,
but then again, maybe i am just another girl.
Thursday, March 19, 2009
i really love to...
sing. there is probably no other pasttime in the whole world that i will come across that will make me as happy as singing does. when i know i'm making beautiful music, whether its by myself or with others, i get this sense of accomplishment and pride. singing calms me down and rids me of all my other emotions. it doesn't matter whether i'm angry or sad, my voice lets everything out. everything is always better when i express it. lately i've been relying on the piano to help me with my emotions. something about letting my fingers run across keys allows me to become serene. i wish i still took my lessons, but i'm slowly learning to play with sheet music in front of me. :) i love playing when no ones' home. i get to sing as loud as i want with as much feeling as i choose. it's different when people are home, or people are watching me because i feel very insecure about how i sound.
today was normal, i guess. it wasn't any different from the days i've been having. this morning i woke up in a good mood, but after my 0 period sectional, it kind of just went downhill. things are looking up though, i need to work harder to achieve my goals. i'm doing the best i can, but the best i can is not often what people want from me. i'm trying to be who you want me to be, but i'm trying to be myself at the same time.
ruth's house was pretty fun. i love jordan and alexxx. :) the four of us sound pretty good, so i'm a teensy weensy bit excited about gender wars assembly tomorrow. its the best we could scrounge up at last minute. pahaha!
I LOVE COLBIE! SHE IS SUCH A CUTIE<3
yes, i'm still lost. i need to find my way back and figure things out. right now i'm not entirely sure. things are weird when i'm not talking to you, and i know you miss me, but you'll get used to the lack of my presence. it's hard for me to say that i don't feel the same way you do, but its true.
there's a whole different feeling now, and i'm not entirely sure what it is. it makes me a little bit scared. i've never been on this end before, but now everything's out and i can't take anything back. do i really want to take it back though? it's how i truly feel or see things, so honesty is better than nothing. sometimes i wish i could start it all over and make better decisions, but i can't. i'll live with what i've got, with the decisions i've made.
i guess sometimes things are better left unsaid.
because right now, i can't get you out of my head.
today was normal, i guess. it wasn't any different from the days i've been having. this morning i woke up in a good mood, but after my 0 period sectional, it kind of just went downhill. things are looking up though, i need to work harder to achieve my goals. i'm doing the best i can, but the best i can is not often what people want from me. i'm trying to be who you want me to be, but i'm trying to be myself at the same time.
ruth's house was pretty fun. i love jordan and alexxx. :) the four of us sound pretty good, so i'm a teensy weensy bit excited about gender wars assembly tomorrow. its the best we could scrounge up at last minute. pahaha!
I LOVE COLBIE! SHE IS SUCH A CUTIE<3
yes, i'm still lost. i need to find my way back and figure things out. right now i'm not entirely sure. things are weird when i'm not talking to you, and i know you miss me, but you'll get used to the lack of my presence. it's hard for me to say that i don't feel the same way you do, but its true.
there's a whole different feeling now, and i'm not entirely sure what it is. it makes me a little bit scared. i've never been on this end before, but now everything's out and i can't take anything back. do i really want to take it back though? it's how i truly feel or see things, so honesty is better than nothing. sometimes i wish i could start it all over and make better decisions, but i can't. i'll live with what i've got, with the decisions i've made.
i guess sometimes things are better left unsaid.
because right now, i can't get you out of my head.
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
frogs in my throat.
CAHSEE for the past two days was seriously so ridiculous easy and boring. i tried to stall for time so i wouldn't have to go to my second period class. thank goodness. i'm glad its over with. the reading portion was really easy. math was easy too but looking at all those numbers is really overwhelming and give me a headache. numbers was never my strong suit though so its understandable.
today was an improvement from most days. yeah i'm still confused, but i've decided to just let what happens happens. i don't lose anything, it'll just be your loss. i'm like stuck between two different "things" and i don't want to pick either right now. picking one will make me feel guilty, picking another will just be stupid. so i got with none. makes sense right?
for some reason the weather was hot. today. i dont know why. yesterday was cold and i wore a sweater today becuaes i thought it was going to be cold and then BOOM its hot. -_- oh well. tehee.
choir is frustrating me. esp concert choir. i honestly feel like i'm the only one singing sometimes. or at least singing it right. i miss my buddy who i can sing in tune with and make pretty sounds together. THATS YOU RUTH! :)
golden state and tour in two weeks. i'm really really nervous but also really really excited.
augh. my voice is totally shot. there is like phlegm or whatever in it. i hate being sick. it makes me sound no good at all. :(
i smiled today.
it was becuase of you.
today was an improvement from most days. yeah i'm still confused, but i've decided to just let what happens happens. i don't lose anything, it'll just be your loss. i'm like stuck between two different "things" and i don't want to pick either right now. picking one will make me feel guilty, picking another will just be stupid. so i got with none. makes sense right?
for some reason the weather was hot. today. i dont know why. yesterday was cold and i wore a sweater today becuaes i thought it was going to be cold and then BOOM its hot. -_- oh well. tehee.
choir is frustrating me. esp concert choir. i honestly feel like i'm the only one singing sometimes. or at least singing it right. i miss my buddy who i can sing in tune with and make pretty sounds together. THATS YOU RUTH! :)
golden state and tour in two weeks. i'm really really nervous but also really really excited.
augh. my voice is totally shot. there is like phlegm or whatever in it. i hate being sick. it makes me sound no good at all. :(
i smiled today.
it was becuase of you.
Monday, March 16, 2009
i am ...
angry that i believed everything you said to me. i am angry i didn't see right through your stupid little game. i'm angry that i feel used and like a replacement. i'm angry that i liked you. i'm angry that i missed you.
this will NOT make me become cynical.
it will NOT. i will NOT stand for it.
i am too nice.
this will NOT make me become cynical.
it will NOT. i will NOT stand for it.
i am too nice.
Sunday, March 15, 2009
now i know.
you didn't have to tell me.
doesn't matter what your signals say.
i know the answer already.
there's a first for everything.
i need a good cry.
or a hug.
doesn't matter what your signals say.
i know the answer already.
there's a first for everything.
i need a good cry.
or a hug.
Friday, March 13, 2009
you don't even know.
this morning i woke up with a smile on my face.
i ended school with a sad face.
my body is rather sore lately.
i can't focus in school these days.
there are too many unanswered questions.
but only you can give me the answers.
i ended school with a sad face.
my body is rather sore lately.
i can't focus in school these days.
there are too many unanswered questions.
but only you can give me the answers.
Thursday, March 12, 2009
thankyou for...
making me smile.
making me laugh.
making me feel special.
making me feel important.
giving me strength.
supporting me.
giving me a shoulder to cry on.
worrying about me.
bringing me joy.
bringing me flowers.
bringing me food.
protecting me.
saving me.
loving me.
making me laugh.
making me feel special.
making me feel important.
giving me strength.
supporting me.
giving me a shoulder to cry on.
worrying about me.
bringing me joy.
bringing me flowers.
bringing me food.
protecting me.
saving me.
loving me.
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
you...
don't even know how much i miss you right now.
don't even know how much i despise you right now.
don't even know how much i'm hurting right now.
don't even know how much i want to punch you right now.
don't even know how much i just want you to hold my hand.
don't even know how much i want you to hug me.
don't even know how scared i am.
don't even know the stress you put me through.
don't even know how many tears i've cried over you.
don't even know how angry i am at myself.
don't even know how terrible i feel.
don't even know what you're doing my heart.
P.S. i need to buy a new eraser.
don't even know how much i despise you right now.
don't even know how much i'm hurting right now.
don't even know how much i want to punch you right now.
don't even know how much i just want you to hold my hand.
don't even know how much i want you to hug me.
don't even know how scared i am.
don't even know the stress you put me through.
don't even know how many tears i've cried over you.
don't even know how angry i am at myself.
don't even know how terrible i feel.
don't even know what you're doing my heart.
P.S. i need to buy a new eraser.
Monday, March 9, 2009
Saturday, March 7, 2009
too early.
i'm up early this morning, even though its a satuday. -_-
well, prom dress event at FIDM today!
i'm pretty excited.
last night was the FNL Talent Show!
Mitchell was tehre, and I really enjoyed seeing him :)
he made the whole thing so much more enjoyable.
kevin and jordann!<3333
they should have won, no matter what.
so much better than "real intentions."
but i have to say, that band was pretty good.
:)
fun night out with vyvian and etc.
"we would pass by each other, neither one of us willing to make the first step. our eyes locked on each other, as we danced around seeing who would give into their feelings first. maybe they were there, or maybe it was just my imagination. but for me, i felt it. i felt the feeling that wouldn't let you get out of my head, not even for a second. your smile, your presence, made every day worth it. did you feel the same way? i would never know. but all i do know is, in the end, we met each other half way."
well, prom dress event at FIDM today!
i'm pretty excited.
last night was the FNL Talent Show!
Mitchell was tehre, and I really enjoyed seeing him :)
he made the whole thing so much more enjoyable.
kevin and jordann!<3333
they should have won, no matter what.
so much better than "real intentions."
but i have to say, that band was pretty good.
:)
fun night out with vyvian and etc.
"we would pass by each other, neither one of us willing to make the first step. our eyes locked on each other, as we danced around seeing who would give into their feelings first. maybe they were there, or maybe it was just my imagination. but for me, i felt it. i felt the feeling that wouldn't let you get out of my head, not even for a second. your smile, your presence, made every day worth it. did you feel the same way? i would never know. but all i do know is, in the end, we met each other half way."
Thursday, March 5, 2009
finding my way back.
the retreat was amazing. whatever i lost of my faith, i think i regained it there. i met so many amazing new people, and its hard to believe that i was so reluctant to attend before.
team kindness.<3
my days at school are becoming better.
i have someonething to look forward to each day.
which is great. because it keeps me happy.
and motivated.
i'm getting it together.
all i needed was a push.
team kindness.<3
my days at school are becoming better.
i have someonething to look forward to each day.
which is great. because it keeps me happy.
and motivated.
i'm getting it together.
all i needed was a push.
Thursday, February 26, 2009
Thursday, February 19, 2009
i can't
do this anymore.
school.
family.
boyfriend.
choir.
i feel like quitting everything.
i need to feel worth something.
i need to feel worth somebody's time.
i need to feel like i'm good.
i need to feel like i'm perfect the way i am.
school.
family.
boyfriend.
choir.
i feel like quitting everything.
i need to feel worth something.
i need to feel worth somebody's time.
i need to feel like i'm good.
i need to feel like i'm perfect the way i am.
Sunday, February 15, 2009
mediocre.
i stand alone in the dark
waiting for something, anything
hoping for someone, something
i see some light up ahead
i reach out,
and its almost in my hands
once grasped, i won't let it go
is this what i need?
is this what i'm looking for?
here it is, within my reach
here it is, i've got it now
maybe this is the remedy
maybe this will save me
mediocre. is what this is.
ty for those daisies.
they're beautiful.
<3 whoever you are.
waiting for something, anything
hoping for someone, something
i see some light up ahead
i reach out,
and its almost in my hands
once grasped, i won't let it go
is this what i need?
is this what i'm looking for?
here it is, within my reach
here it is, i've got it now
maybe this is the remedy
maybe this will save me
mediocre. is what this is.
ty for those daisies.
they're beautiful.
<3 whoever you are.
Sunday, February 8, 2009
sometimes i wonder...
what is special about me?
idk.
i feel pretty plain jane lately.
everyone i know can do something so great.
and do it well.
i feel average next to other poeple.
yeah, i can sing.
so what.
i can't compose songs.
and i can barely play the piano.
i need to find some sort of calling.
i dont know what it is, but something that makes me unique.
right now, i'm pretty content with everything i have.
but get tired of being the same girl everyone expects me to be.
i'm going to surprise you.
one day.
i will.
you'll see.
idk.
i feel pretty plain jane lately.
everyone i know can do something so great.
and do it well.
i feel average next to other poeple.
yeah, i can sing.
so what.
i can't compose songs.
and i can barely play the piano.
i need to find some sort of calling.
i dont know what it is, but something that makes me unique.
right now, i'm pretty content with everything i have.
but get tired of being the same girl everyone expects me to be.
i'm going to surprise you.
one day.
i will.
you'll see.
Tuesday, February 3, 2009
idontcare...
yes i do.
but i have to pretend that i don't.
because it makes you happy.
becuase that's what i'm supposed to do.
give.
i don't want to take as much.
i don't want to seem selfish.
i'm trying to be the girl you love.
if that person really is me.
i'm afraid if i express my true feelings,
you'll walk away in frustration.
"you're just like every other girl."
i don't want you to think that i see myself as a princess.
being selfless is hard.
this one thing just happens to be special to me.
but if you hate it that much,
i'll go on pretending i hate it too.
but i dont.
but i have to pretend that i don't.
because it makes you happy.
becuase that's what i'm supposed to do.
give.
i don't want to take as much.
i don't want to seem selfish.
i'm trying to be the girl you love.
if that person really is me.
i'm afraid if i express my true feelings,
you'll walk away in frustration.
"you're just like every other girl."
i don't want you to think that i see myself as a princess.
being selfless is hard.
this one thing just happens to be special to me.
but if you hate it that much,
i'll go on pretending i hate it too.
but i dont.
Friday, January 30, 2009
hard to believe.
yeah. quartets were no good today.
i seriously felt like i was going to BLOW UP.
right ruth? you saw me!
GOD.
STOP relying on other people.
STOP thinking that singing is easy.
STOP texting in class while we're singing.
STOP taking this class as a joke.
STOP bringing all the people who work down.
STOP. STOP. STOP. STOP. STOP. STOP.
please?
PLUS.
you are a TROUBADOUR.
HOW DO YOU NOT KNOW YOUR PART BY NOW?!
gah.
i need some yogurt.
i seriously felt like i was going to BLOW UP.
right ruth? you saw me!
GOD.
STOP relying on other people.
STOP thinking that singing is easy.
STOP texting in class while we're singing.
STOP taking this class as a joke.
STOP bringing all the people who work down.
STOP. STOP. STOP. STOP. STOP. STOP.
please?
PLUS.
you are a TROUBADOUR.
HOW DO YOU NOT KNOW YOUR PART BY NOW?!
gah.
i need some yogurt.
Thursday, January 29, 2009
is anybody listening?
I really do not enjoy having sectionals in choir. They are pointless and useless because no one ever really listens. We don't really ever accomplish anything, especially in Concert Choir. Most of the time in Troubadours we do, but in CC, most of the members don't care enough to pay attention. It makes me really upset becuase tomorrow when we have octets/quartets, they will complain about how Tison picks on them and how its such a drag. Personally, I like doing quartets and think they're fun becuase I get to show off whthat I know. And if the others also knew their part, then it wouldn't be such a death senence to them.
Today, I brought something up with Jackie to Mr. TIson about how there were some people not knowing their parts as well as they should. Normally I would just keep it to myself, but it was really eating at me. We've had these songs for about a month now, so shouldn't we know most of it? Most of the time I feel like I'm singing by myself and the only one that is actually attempting at singing our part. Just becuase you don't know it entirely doesn't mean you stop singing. Keep singing and make the mistake. That's how I learn, from my own mistakes. Quartets in Troubadours tomorrow, I'm pretty prepared for it, but I plan to go over my music later.
I woke up an hour late from my nap today. So now everything is pushed back.
I need to finished my homework, I have tons.
Feels good when everything is all done and put away though.
:)
BTW RUTH! I prayed that you would pass your driving test!
Today, I brought something up with Jackie to Mr. TIson about how there were some people not knowing their parts as well as they should. Normally I would just keep it to myself, but it was really eating at me. We've had these songs for about a month now, so shouldn't we know most of it? Most of the time I feel like I'm singing by myself and the only one that is actually attempting at singing our part. Just becuase you don't know it entirely doesn't mean you stop singing. Keep singing and make the mistake. That's how I learn, from my own mistakes. Quartets in Troubadours tomorrow, I'm pretty prepared for it, but I plan to go over my music later.
I woke up an hour late from my nap today. So now everything is pushed back.
I need to finished my homework, I have tons.
Feels good when everything is all done and put away though.
:)
BTW RUTH! I prayed that you would pass your driving test!
Monday, January 26, 2009
island.
catalina was a blast.
there are too many things to say about it.
so if you want to know. :)
call me.
teheheheheeeee.
troubadours<3
there are too many things to say about it.
so if you want to know. :)
call me.
teheheheheeeee.
troubadours<3
Thursday, January 22, 2009
scantrons.
finals week is basically over for me. all i have is a vocabulary final tomorrow, which should be pretty easy.
i'm really hoping for straight A's, but APEURO and chem are really bringing me down.
These finals are so long. I get so bored filling in 100 bubbles on my scantrons. There are times when I'll just lose concentration and stare into space.
I'm so glad catalina is right after finals tomorrow.
I need to relax.
i'm really hoping for straight A's, but APEURO and chem are really bringing me down.
These finals are so long. I get so bored filling in 100 bubbles on my scantrons. There are times when I'll just lose concentration and stare into space.
I'm so glad catalina is right after finals tomorrow.
I need to relax.
Sunday, January 18, 2009
frog prince.
last night was really overwhelming.
yelling
screaming.
speeding.
but, in the end, i'm glad everything worked out okay.
i don't want to lose you.
and i know well enough to understand.
my emotions tend to get the better of me.
i'm glad everything worked out okay.
<3
finals weeek.
studying my ass off.
augh.
catalinaaaa.
i can't wait to get my ass out there and sing sing sing.
yelling
screaming.
speeding.
but, in the end, i'm glad everything worked out okay.
i don't want to lose you.
and i know well enough to understand.
my emotions tend to get the better of me.
i'm glad everything worked out okay.
<3
finals weeek.
studying my ass off.
augh.
catalinaaaa.
i can't wait to get my ass out there and sing sing sing.
Monday, January 12, 2009
Sunday, January 11, 2009
busybusybusy.
Finals are coming up, and I know I should be studying now, but I know that I'm not going to until like two days before.
So far I've fallen asleep in my geometry class twice, which is horrible. I feel so bored in my class though. I don't really bother talking to a lot of people because I don't have time to. Paying attention is what's going to keep me from getting a B in this class. Gah.
Friday in Troubs we had to sing quartets for A Lover and a Lass, and I think I did okay, considering how I didn't practice it the night before. The music for Troubadours is so hard, I hope I can hold my own weight. Lunch, Tiffany and I went to the Rock the Runway meeting for Hurley, and I want to be a model, but i'm not sure if I can. Tiff's going to style my hair. :) Yeee. I walked in and there were so many pretty girls I felt ugly! This coming Thursday is audtions, so I hope I'll do fine. The whole day I was really just looking forward to the day being over so I could see a certain frog. The five of us went to BC and then to snorlax's house. His bed is super super comfortable. I wanted to fall asleep on it. Stayed there until seven and went to choir. I was so so so tired I feel asleeep on Jessica's lap. When I got home I went to sleep right away. The week made me so so tired, and now its almost over! :(
Thieu Nhi resumed yesterday, and we played... err.. idk. I dont know what the game was called but it was pretty scary. Everyone was on the floor grabbing each other. Haah. We are an aggressive group. :) Yesterday was also my fourteen monhts with my froggy<3 Yay. I finished rereading Breaking Dawn yesterday. I still hate Bella. :)
I have not done any of my homework yet, which would be study for APEURO, read To Kill a Mockingbird, and my chemistry lab. Oh well, I'll do it later tonight after mass.
My face is still ugly. :( My pimple is not gone yet. Even though I've drinken lots of water and eaten fruits. Gah, I hate it. I hate it. Stupid Steven had to point it out to everyone. He is honestly the only one rude enough to say that. Every other boy was FINE and kept it to themselves. Goodness.
Idk, sometimes I wish I could just move to a different church with different people. Not that I dont love the one I"m at already, its just that I feel so judged and everyone expects me to be a certain way, and when I do something that is "out of the ordinary" people pass judgements as if they're saints. I'm not perfect, and you can't expect me to be someone you imagine me to be. Take me as I am, and accept it.
I practice music yesterday. My voice is al;dkfjas;dlkhfadlgjkahdlkfjasasa.
a;lsdkgjasdfas
i am this close to despising it.
So far I've fallen asleep in my geometry class twice, which is horrible. I feel so bored in my class though. I don't really bother talking to a lot of people because I don't have time to. Paying attention is what's going to keep me from getting a B in this class. Gah.
Friday in Troubs we had to sing quartets for A Lover and a Lass, and I think I did okay, considering how I didn't practice it the night before. The music for Troubadours is so hard, I hope I can hold my own weight. Lunch, Tiffany and I went to the Rock the Runway meeting for Hurley, and I want to be a model, but i'm not sure if I can. Tiff's going to style my hair. :) Yeee. I walked in and there were so many pretty girls I felt ugly! This coming Thursday is audtions, so I hope I'll do fine. The whole day I was really just looking forward to the day being over so I could see a certain frog. The five of us went to BC and then to snorlax's house. His bed is super super comfortable. I wanted to fall asleep on it. Stayed there until seven and went to choir. I was so so so tired I feel asleeep on Jessica's lap. When I got home I went to sleep right away. The week made me so so tired, and now its almost over! :(
Thieu Nhi resumed yesterday, and we played... err.. idk. I dont know what the game was called but it was pretty scary. Everyone was on the floor grabbing each other. Haah. We are an aggressive group. :) Yesterday was also my fourteen monhts with my froggy<3 Yay. I finished rereading Breaking Dawn yesterday. I still hate Bella. :)
I have not done any of my homework yet, which would be study for APEURO, read To Kill a Mockingbird, and my chemistry lab. Oh well, I'll do it later tonight after mass.
My face is still ugly. :( My pimple is not gone yet. Even though I've drinken lots of water and eaten fruits. Gah, I hate it. I hate it. Stupid Steven had to point it out to everyone. He is honestly the only one rude enough to say that. Every other boy was FINE and kept it to themselves. Goodness.
Idk, sometimes I wish I could just move to a different church with different people. Not that I dont love the one I"m at already, its just that I feel so judged and everyone expects me to be a certain way, and when I do something that is "out of the ordinary" people pass judgements as if they're saints. I'm not perfect, and you can't expect me to be someone you imagine me to be. Take me as I am, and accept it.
I practice music yesterday. My voice is al;dkfjas;dlkhfadlgjkahdlkfjasasa.
a;lsdkgjasdfas
i am this close to despising it.
Sunday, January 4, 2009
so it ends.
the last day of break, and of course i procrastinated on my homework until the end.
good thing i'm almost done.
i'm going to have to get back into my zero period sleeping pattern. i've been staying up very late this winter.
yesterday i made a video, and posted it on youtube.
gah.
jason tells me i should write lyrics.
gah.
no good.
good thing i'm almost done.
i'm going to have to get back into my zero period sleeping pattern. i've been staying up very late this winter.
yesterday i made a video, and posted it on youtube.
gah.
jason tells me i should write lyrics.
gah.
no good.
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