real.

gender wars assembly, was alright. singing was :) it's a different feeling once i'm up there in front of everyone. before it began, i was super super nervous. i'm always afraid of messing up or not sounding great. but, i'm glad everything turned out the way it was planned.

i was in such a good mood by the end of the day.
it's funny how just one person can do that to you.

i smiled a real smile yesterday. i was truly happy yesterday.

i realized that i'm scared of getting hurt, but then again, who isn't? my fear keeps me from taking risks and chances that i feel i'll regret later on. but i don't want to make any rash decisions before i really know what's going on. when things aren't right, my mind goes into overdrive. people tell me i should be careful or forget, but somehow i can't. i'm trying to be cautious and wary, but in the end, it's not like i have anything to lose anymore.

it doesn't work if you do it to every other girl,
but then again, maybe i am just another girl.