smile, jesus loves you!

SB SPIRIT. :)
mm, camp was fun. it was really hot and i got sick, but whatever.
i hadn't seen lyndon and ken in a long time. pretty much spent the whole weekend with lyndon, which was funfunfun. made some new friends, which is always nice. :)
i'm tired and sore, and my voice is pretty much gone, and even though camp wasn't as great as it usually is, i'm glad i went.

campcampcamp

today is the day! i'm so excited! i have to leave in like an hour and i'm not done packing, but whatever. CAMP. i get to see LYNA. who i haven't seen in like ages and i have so much to tell her but she'll probably be too busy or i'll be too busy but hopefully i get to talk to her a litle bit. sometimes a phone call isn't enough sometimes, you know?
my APBIO book came yesterrday! i'm so excited! haha, i just need my shoes from urbanoutfitters, clothes from forever21, and lab manual to come and i'll be satisfied. :]
this morning i made brownies to bring to camp. yum!
lyan took me to the mall to buy a new bra, finally.
sushi with my sister diane anh long at maru sushi. it was fun ! i haven't had sushi in the longest time.

YESTERDAY went to anton's house and kicked it with thang and anton. haha, it was pretty chill, i love those two ! :] plans to watch transformers next week and beach it with them so i hope my mommy lets me even though i have like a million things to study, but come onn its summer!
today we're perforing for our skit, and i honestly have no clue how its going to turn out! yesterday's practice was pretty much... idk. well, it was an improvement. i'm really scared to sing in front of everyone and even though i've done it before cos of choir, its different. i'm like afraid the mics will be stupid or i won't move people with the song the way i'm supposed to. gahh! if anything, i had fun doing it with everyone. :]

i don't like to get into fights, but i'm not gonna back down if you say something riduculous to me. if i feel like i didn't do anything wrong, i won't take your bullshit. yeah, i'm understanding but i'm not going to let you walk all over me either. i don't mean to be a bitch, i just get stressed.
but, i'm happy. this may sound dumb, but i think i deserve to be happy. just a little bit of happiness. and, i am. everything is how its supposed to be, sorta... hahah. thinking of the near future sometimes skews my feelings but i try not to think about it. its scary to just give it away like that. so, i'm still holding onto it. just in case. just in case it's not what it seems to be.

anyway, i still need to cut brownies!
text me this weekend.
:] hopefully i have reception.

byee loves<3

we're unstoppable now

i stayed up late last night, but its summer so its okay right?
skit practice yesterday was chaotic.
everyone was pretty much ALL over the place, and there was a lot of negative energy.
bao for sure is freaking out, but i am too a little. he's coming over today to voice record along with jason, huong, and daniel. hopefully we can pull this together at the last minute. i really want to win!
augh, i was really annoyed yesterday though. freaking thieu girls. that suck. that can't dance. in the back. that are too cool. my god, if you don't want to do it then don't be in it! ladkjfalksdjf;asidfa! and that other girl. whatever her name is. i will refer to her as monkey girl's friend's sister. i don't know why the heck you're there, but at least do something. offer to help! be IN the skit! you're there every single practice anyway. it's not like we have a million people.
augh! okay. i am calm.

mmm, i've been thinking a lot lately.. acutally have been forced to think a lot lately about this subject. haha, i dont know what i want. i know what i need, but want is totally different. sometimes i'm like, this totally isn't worth my time, but other times its like, maybe threre's more than what it is. i don't like giving up on things, unless i truly feel like its not worth my time.
gah, i am indecisive.
but in any case, until anything is said, i'm a free bird. i do what i want, when i want. if you want something, do something about it.


why is it that i still haven't gone to the beach?! :(
i miss my sister.

you belong with me

"hot piece of sex"
yes he is. mmmm.

this morning i cleaned out my closet! i feel accomplished. :)
THE PROPOSAL with DARLENE today.
such a cute and satisfying movie.
:)
i love darlene!
ooh, my APBIO book got shipped today. i'm so excited. ahaha, i'm such a nerd.
this week is going to be great.
i can't wait wait wait for camp!!


i'm not yours to keep.

FCK.

you.

summer?!

so this summer, i vow to be productive! :)
yesterday i cleaned my room and felt so accomplished! ahaha. mmm, i got my books ready for school next year, (i know i'm such a loser) but whatever. i was supposed to start apbio homework yesterday and today, but the stupid server is down, which means i can't do it! i have apush and apbio and sats to work on this summer. wooh! i'm planning on taking drivers ed too. and i applied for a job a tastea, which i really hope i get. i was laying in bed thinking about everything i have to do this summer, and it was really overwhelming! how am i going to handle it all? summer seems like such a long time, but like everything else, it slips right through your fingers. mm, i'll have to mkae the most of every moment. :)
man, i'm growing up. all these things, getting a job and sats, they seemed so long ago, something that i thought i wouldn't have to worry about for a while. and now, its here! its pretty crazy how life passes by so quickly. i'm scared, but i'm excited.
mmm, camp is coming up! i finally get to see everyone again. :) yay lyndon! ahaha. i hope our skit turns out well, and i hope we dominate. :)
i'm going to have some fun this summer too! beach beach beach and disneyland! plus spending my days with darlene<3.

mm, just one little rant.
don't get mad at me over things i can't control. don't be a bitch just cos i can't be somewhere. understand and don't completely shut me out, because, hey, i would never do that to you. don't talk shit when you honestly have no clue what the hell you're talking about. i guess that just makes you the lesser person.

ANYWAY.
call me up anyday to go play. <3

i am...

scared to get too attached.
cos, you know it might be pointless!
and then everything falls apart.
that's not good at all.
so i'll just keep it like this.
close, but at a distance.

i've learned not to let go of my own heart.
at least not completely.

summer.<3

a GREAT school year. i've met so many amazing people, and they've made such an impact on my life. thanks to everyone who put up with me this WHOLE year, because i know how hard it is! :(
mm, i'm definitely going to miss everyone.

straight A's, i'm happy.
thanks penhall!




I LOVE SUMMER.
call me to hang out babe. <3

bait&release.

gotta get outta here,
i'm stuck inside this rut that i fell into by mistake
gotta get out of here.
i'm begging you,
i'm begging you,
i'm begging you to be my escape.

i just want you you you you you.

gabe bondoc singing that is amazing.
sighsigh.
i want to sing that with a boy on the uke.
damnit vincent, LEARN IT ALREADY. :)
hahahaaa.

i'm debating on whether i should trust what people say to me.
sometimes its a load of crap.
but i dont want to be like, cynical either.
maybe its time to just let it go.
but i don't want to.
oh god.
i am the most indecisive person ever.
how do you guys put up with me? JESSICA?!

finals weeek.
i am indifferent.
let's get this over with.
summer summer summer come.

i can't wait for camp.
to see everyone.
<3

its going to be awesome.
:)

A FOLLOW UP ON WHAT JESSICA TOLD ME.
girl, you must be crazy to think i just got to where i am today. i'm sorry if i'm friendly, but it doesn't mean things are easy. maybe more people know me cos my sisters are HTs but its not like its something special. don't you dare say i don't work for my praise/honors/shit becuase that is BULL. BULL BULL BULL. i work my ass off. i don't need recognition for it. i'm just there to do what i do and have fun. i'm sorry you're not included in our supposed "COOL" group, but chill out. don't go attacking people saying things you don't know. you end up looking dumb. if you want to hang out with us, just hang out. its not like we're exclusive.

i need a new video to record. :|
but at least summer's coming! :)

i know very well.

today was a pretty fun day, spent the morning with JDN<3. we went to go eat crawfish at Cajun Corner, which i haven't had in the longest time. yumm yumm! haha we went back to her house, and worked off those calories playing WII . dude, it's so fun. boxing is so crazy! went old school and played DDR, which i haven't played since like 8th grade. i suck . :( oh well.

finals are coming up, so major studying this week.
lets study together guys! :)

this year, i've discovered that there are just some people who aren't worth my time. they don't deserve the kindess that i give. i don't expect them to reciprocate the same amount of kindness, but its amazing how things can change within a couple of hours. i think those are the kind of people that in end, won't be there for you. even though i know this, i'm still nice. idk, kindness and forgiveness are good, and everyone has some good in them. i've seen the good, so maybe its just a fluke that one time. whatever, we'll see.
i don't listen to what others say about you. well, i listen, but in the end, its me that makes the decision. i do what i want. i don't let what others affect what i do anymore.


at least there's one more week left.<3

personal.

call or text me.

bittersweet.

got yearbook today.
i know summer's coming and school's ending.
i'm both happy and sad.

my birthday was great.
i love my friends<3
the show was fabulous.
it feels so good to do what i love.
and be able to show people what i can do.

i made troubadours again.
the list is waack. idk what is going on.
hopefully everything turns out okay.


it's really cold these days.
i need my summer sun.
where is my sunshine? :(