rainbow.

these beating drums,
we call our hearts.
they give us life
they give us love.
we love it,
we hate it.

embrace it with every ounce,
use it all until there's no more
don't look back.


i think i've come to understand that there are so many different layers to people. i see life as something positive, but lately there are people that make it not so. i've only begun to realize that not everybody has good intentions for their actions. and not everybody will try to understand things before judging. there are those who do mean things just for recreation. yeah, that's pretty lame, but who am i to judge right? as long as i know who i am, and the people i just to be around, i should be just dandy.
i know i live by "i don't care what other people think," but i think its to an extent. i do things that make me happy, and if people think something of it, well, who are they to stop my pursuit of happiness? but if you're my friends, and its on a subject rather important to me, of course i'll care. i don't totally block our your opinions.
high school has changed me a lot. i don't really know if it's for the better or for the worse. i do know that i'm happy with who i am, and that's all the really matters. i guess i'm growing up, and if people don't like it, then they don't like it. not everyone can like you, and not everyone has the same thought process as you.
people are complex. but that shouldn't stop anyone.
sometimes its better to just let things be.

delicious.

Today was great!

Spent the morning at J.Bui's house. Tehee. She gave me my PINK Victoria's Secret Hoodie for my birthday! Yayy. I love it. :) Ahaha. We were supposed to go eat crawfishy with Lily, but Lily's mom was being kind of not very nice, so change of plans. Jessy and I walked to Heaven's Delight for yogurt. Omg. We were walking and like this motorcycle made a really loud noise, so Jessica screamed which gave me a heart attack, so I screamed! Ahh. And the lady that was walking towards us started laughing. Ahaha. So embarrassing! Met up with Cathy at yogurtt! So lucky her shop is like right there, and we caught up on stuff. :) I love that chicky. After a while, Vince called, so Jessica and I walked back. There was this guy in a truck that honked at us! And were all what the hell? So we just kept walking, and he came back! I guess he made like a U-turn or something and he honked again! So Jessica ran. Ahaha. So funnny. :)

Crawfish with Vince. Yummy I love it! :) And then Vu's house. And then home. :) Yayy.


I love summer!

stop&stare.

ah, i think summer is going by way too fast. it's almost over! :( but i also want school to startt. i miss those freaks i call friends. :)
i woke up this morning at like 11ish and spent four hours baking cupcakes and brownies. i love to bake. i really want to bake a really good cake one day. yeahh.
church today, the usual, singing and stuff.
mikeeeeey and ian might come over later so we can play . :) yeaaa. i miss those guys. they're so fun, and make my day so much brighter. it'll be a blast.
so i'm trying to get the upperhand. i dont know exactly how to do it, but i will. it'll happen sooner or later. hopefully. i feel so empty and strange without it. right now i'm just waiting. let's hope for the best.

surprise me with a visit this week! it'll make my day.

getting stronger.

so, i didnt get to go to disneyland today, but that's okay. i think, somehow my week is looking up.

Thursday, I went to Corona Del Mar with Lyna, Huong, Cauyy, and Ronald. It was pretty fun. :) That beach has so much seaweed though! Ahaha. I swear, it attacked Huong like twice when we were playing in the water. Ah, there was this guy with a really hairy back. Huong and I just wanted to go over there and shave it off! Ahaha. Pretty funn stuff. After playing in the water, we went back to go dry off and just lay in the sun. Huong and I talked about stuff, ahaha not entirely sure WHY or HOW the subjects came up, but they did. I love that girly. <3

Today, I was supposed to go, but maybe it turned out for the better. I didn't have a very good morning, but Mitchell came over and we played and talked. :) He made me feel loads better! I'm gonna him him like crazy! <33 His car smells though. Ahaha. Good luck at Westmont! Ah.. choir later today. The usual. Maybe Huong's house. :)

There's a lot of things in life I'll never understand, and there are things in life I'll never like. But in the end, I think it'll make me a better person. God blows wind in my direction only to lead me to the right path. All I need to do is believe, trust, and have faith. It's not going to be easy, but I think that as long as I try, everything will be okay.

i'm gonna love you with my life.

good morning everyone. yet another day of summer has come, and i don't have any plans today. mmm. anton cancelled! buttface.<3 tomorrow! ahaha.
i didn't get much sleep last night, considering how i went to sleep at six o clock. i really need to stop thinking at night, it keeps me up.
there are things i will proably never understand, but i can't stop myself from trying to. so many questions run through my head unanswered, and so many "what ifs?". i don't know how things are like this. is there a point in trying anymore? my heart beats fsater everytime i see you, but does that really say anything? these words you choose to tell me, your feelings, are they real? do you bullshit me? i don't know. i try hard to believe but sometimes it just doesn't come through. and why are you still here? you say horrible things that you supposedly don't mean, but how do i know that? what's your reason for still being here? no one's making you stay, not even me.
anyway.
beach tomorrow with cat, gisi, and carno. GOD i miss those girls. <3 it'll be a fun day. and then an evening with anton. planning stuff. ahaha. mmmm. i look foward to the rest of this week. at least some things can keep me up. :)

body worlds.

Today I went to the Body Worlds Exhibit with my parents and Lyna in LA.
It was pretty coool. :)
Everything is REAL.
Like, those bodies used to be living!
This will be a disappointment, but my favorite part was the big giraffe at the end.
It was SO BIG and TALL you know?
It was a REAL giraffe!
Haha. They wouldn't let me take pictures, but oh welll.
Came home and finished the rest of Harry Potter and the Scorcerer's Stone.
I swear I will never get tired of that series. <3
The rest of my day was okay, shitty in the end though.
People make me upset.
I just don't understand why it's that way.

-sighs-
Tomorrow is another day.
Anton's coming over! :)

summerr. :)

i love it. don't you? :)
it's just so much fun! ahaha.
i'm excited for this comingg weeek.
museum, beach, & disneyland!
yeahh! :)
mmm, i feeel like baking!
anyone want some cupcakes?
yay!