i'm gonna love you with my life.

good morning everyone. yet another day of summer has come, and i don't have any plans today. mmm. anton cancelled! buttface.<3 tomorrow! ahaha.
i didn't get much sleep last night, considering how i went to sleep at six o clock. i really need to stop thinking at night, it keeps me up.
there are things i will proably never understand, but i can't stop myself from trying to. so many questions run through my head unanswered, and so many "what ifs?". i don't know how things are like this. is there a point in trying anymore? my heart beats fsater everytime i see you, but does that really say anything? these words you choose to tell me, your feelings, are they real? do you bullshit me? i don't know. i try hard to believe but sometimes it just doesn't come through. and why are you still here? you say horrible things that you supposedly don't mean, but how do i know that? what's your reason for still being here? no one's making you stay, not even me.
anyway.
beach tomorrow with cat, gisi, and carno. GOD i miss those girls. <3 it'll be a fun day. and then an evening with anton. planning stuff. ahaha. mmmm. i look foward to the rest of this week. at least some things can keep me up. :)

body worlds.

Today I went to the Body Worlds Exhibit with my parents and Lyna in LA.
It was pretty coool. :)
Everything is REAL.
Like, those bodies used to be living!
This will be a disappointment, but my favorite part was the big giraffe at the end.
It was SO BIG and TALL you know?
It was a REAL giraffe!
Haha. They wouldn't let me take pictures, but oh welll.
Came home and finished the rest of Harry Potter and the Scorcerer's Stone.
I swear I will never get tired of that series. <3
The rest of my day was okay, shitty in the end though.
People make me upset.
I just don't understand why it's that way.

-sighs-
Tomorrow is another day.
Anton's coming over! :)

summerr. :)

i love it. don't you? :)
it's just so much fun! ahaha.
i'm excited for this comingg weeek.
museum, beach, & disneyland!
yeahh! :)
mmm, i feeel like baking!
anyone want some cupcakes?
yay!

i <3 choir.

last two week of school! yeah!
today's choir banquet was so funn! :]
i'm going to miss all the seniors. <3
i got most improved female singer.
surprise surprise much?
the place was nice.
the food was good.
what a great day. ^^

birthday wishes.

thanks to everyone who made my special day enjoyable.
i loveeee it. :]
<3