:)

every little touch and smile
you make my days so worthwhile.

i can't

do this anymore.
school.
family.
boyfriend.
choir.



i feel like quitting everything.

i need to feel worth something.
i need to feel worth somebody's time.
i need to feel like i'm good.
i need to feel like i'm perfect the way i am.

mediocre.

i stand alone in the dark
waiting for something, anything
hoping for someone, something
i see some light up ahead
i reach out,
and its almost in my hands
once grasped, i won't let it go
is this what i need?
is this what i'm looking for?

here it is, within my reach
here it is, i've got it now
maybe this is the remedy
maybe this will save me







mediocre. is what this is.





ty for those daisies.
they're beautiful.
<3 whoever you are.

sometimes i wonder...

what is special about me?
idk.
i feel pretty plain jane lately.
everyone i know can do something so great.
and do it well.
i feel average next to other poeple.
yeah, i can sing.
so what.
i can't compose songs.
and i can barely play the piano.
i need to find some sort of calling.
i dont know what it is, but something that makes me unique.
right now, i'm pretty content with everything i have.
but get tired of being the same girl everyone expects me to be.
i'm going to surprise you.
one day.
i will.
you'll see.

idontcare...

yes i do.
but i have to pretend that i don't.
because it makes you happy.
becuase that's what i'm supposed to do.
give.
i don't want to take as much.
i don't want to seem selfish.
i'm trying to be the girl you love.
if that person really is me.
i'm afraid if i express my true feelings,
you'll walk away in frustration.
"you're just like every other girl."
i don't want you to think that i see myself as a princess.
being selfless is hard.
this one thing just happens to be special to me.
but if you hate it that much,
i'll go on pretending i hate it too.





but i dont.