chemistry.

oh how i deplore you. and your stupid chemical bonding and atoms and polar or nonpolar and hybridization and stupid periodic table and formulas that i'm sure i wont even use when i become a nurse. this is useless, i think. and my barely than able so called chemistry teacher doesn't make it any easier to understand. no. instead of teaching he has us watch a video. he gives us worksheets and doesn't even explain the answers. his homework doesn't even correspond to the lesson he taught that day. thanks for confusing me. the only thing you probably can do is make stupid jokes that no one even laughs at. how am i supposed to understand something if you don't teach it? and its not just me, its everyone else too. you can't just assume we know what you're talking about.

plus, your lab stations are so dirty!
department of sanitation please!

ugh.
i have a chemistry test tomorrow. as much as i study, i'm pretty sure i wont be prepared for whatever is on it.

i am so stressed these days, and this month is so busy i am probably going to explode. with all the troubadour gigs and club events and the upcoming holiday concert, it feels like everything is just weighing me down. not to mention the homework that gets piled on top of me each day from my teachers as if i don't have anything better to do.
i'm not even doing well. i'm getting B's on my english essays, which totally disappoints me. i don't know how to improve my essays. i proof them and have other people proof them and they still aren't good enough. gahhh, its depressing. maybe i'm just not that great of a writer.

i feel a crying jag coming on.

back to my attempt at studying.