winterrr.

i haven't blogged in a while.
so here goes! ^^

i think i had a pretty good christmas. i got what i wanted.
:)
A PINK DIGITAL CAMERA.
AHHHHH.
i know i sound really materialistic, but i have seriously wanted one since the seventh grade! :) i woke up christmas eve morning and before i left for church there was a package outside waiting for me and inside it was a cameraaaaa :) yayayay. thankyou so much stev, daniel, thang, jason. i love you boys so so much. <3
i went to vegas the day after christmas and we stayed at luxor. that hotel SUCKS. there is seriously so much walking just to get to the damn elevator. and they gave out like old towels too! not nice fluffly white ones, but yellow ones. ewwewew right?i had a good time despite the horrible service. my brother helped me learn how to play blackjack and it was sooo funn. :) i had a lot of poker chips ! yayay. we also ate at this buffet in the orleans hotel. i don't really like buffets though. i honestly do not eat my money's worth, and people at buffets are really greedy! i will be waiting to get a little bit of shrimp and there is this man who like scoops a plateful of shrimp! seriously. bowling aftewards. i SUCK. :) then yesman. that movie is the cutest thing ever. and i really liked that girl's coat. i also went shopping in vegas, bought like 70 dollars worth of stuff at forever21. :) yeaaa. and i got a giraffe from this horse racing game! yayayay.
i went bowling yesterday with henry and vince and caressa. we played three games and we suckkkkk like crazy. but it was so so funn. i had a good time catching up with caressa. i hadn't seen her since like summer. there was a st. barbara reunion dinner that night, but i honestly didn't really feel like going. a lot of them have changed and i dont even talk to most of the people i used to go to school with. i'm sure it would have been fine and all, but i would have rather been bowling with those three . :)

TB shot tomorrow.
woohoooooo.



i have to start on my homework
hahaha.

are you kidding me.

it is TWO in the morning.
i had a LONG day.
up since 7:45 and didnt get home until 7:30.
12 hours of moving from one place to another.
i am TIRED.
but people like to wake me up.

and now i am pissed off.
and crying.



what the heck.
all i want to do is sleep.
but i cant.
my body + mind are too worked up.
there are too many thoughts in my mind.
the memory of you yelling at me is still there.

-sighs-

chemistry.

oh how i deplore you. and your stupid chemical bonding and atoms and polar or nonpolar and hybridization and stupid periodic table and formulas that i'm sure i wont even use when i become a nurse. this is useless, i think. and my barely than able so called chemistry teacher doesn't make it any easier to understand. no. instead of teaching he has us watch a video. he gives us worksheets and doesn't even explain the answers. his homework doesn't even correspond to the lesson he taught that day. thanks for confusing me. the only thing you probably can do is make stupid jokes that no one even laughs at. how am i supposed to understand something if you don't teach it? and its not just me, its everyone else too. you can't just assume we know what you're talking about.

plus, your lab stations are so dirty!
department of sanitation please!

ugh.
i have a chemistry test tomorrow. as much as i study, i'm pretty sure i wont be prepared for whatever is on it.

i am so stressed these days, and this month is so busy i am probably going to explode. with all the troubadour gigs and club events and the upcoming holiday concert, it feels like everything is just weighing me down. not to mention the homework that gets piled on top of me each day from my teachers as if i don't have anything better to do.
i'm not even doing well. i'm getting B's on my english essays, which totally disappoints me. i don't know how to improve my essays. i proof them and have other people proof them and they still aren't good enough. gahhh, its depressing. maybe i'm just not that great of a writer.

i feel a crying jag coming on.

back to my attempt at studying.