dizzy.

eh, today wasn't that great.
i barely got any sleep last night.
and i probably won't be getting much sleep.
not as long as i keep thinking about.

i was pretty much the walking dead today.
everyone said i was unusually quiet, so idk.
i had an extremely big headache that wouldn't go away.
luckily i found some tylenol in my purse.
it didn't help much though.

i'm about done with my homework, only with chem and apeuro left to do.
i finally got my A in math that i wanted.
i still have a B in chem and english.
whatever.
i'm starting to care less about things.

i think it's your turn to choose
your turn to decide
which road you want to take
with or without me.
i'm tired of these games,
i need to know.
i need to know.
before this breaks.

let go.

my heart is not a toy.



so why do you keep playing with it?

up and then down.

there is something wrong with me lately, i dont know what it is though.
i keep feeling sad and then happy and then sad and then happy.








what is up with me?
gahhh.
i need a friend.<3

year of dreams.

So I finished reading this book called Footfree and Fancyloose. These girls in this book have a Year of Dreams, in which they take a year to do what they want to do. Three of them defer college, and set out to become authors, actresses, or help out the Ethiopians. This book really makes me think about what my dreams are, and would I actually be willing to give up a year of college just to follow a dream that might not even come true? It would be my dream to become a famous music artist, but I honestly dont see that happening any time soon. In my future, I see a stable job, something that will benefit me and others in some way. It's nice to think about the life I could have, but I don't think I'd be able to do what those girls did. It's just so inspirational becuase all of them achieved what they set out to do.

Lyna was home this weekend, it was so comfortable having her back in the house. I'm happy I got to spend time with her. She's very very silly. I miss her jumbles now that she's gone. I wont be able to see her until Christmas. Pooh.

Today was so windy! I woke up and it was all WHOOSH. I hate fall. I hate windy days. My lips get chapped, my skin gets dry, and my hair gets all staticky. I feel like I'm going to blow away! Hurry up fall! Come winter, then spring. I love spring!

I got an 85 on my math test. Disgusting. My grade didnt move at ALL. It still remains an 88. AND the quarter ends in two weeks. I better ace my quizzes.

It's late, I should probably go to sleep soon, so I will. :)
Goodnight all.

relax.

i need to do that.

school makes it pretty hard though. this past week has been really long, and quite stressful. i had a chemistry test, spanish test, and geometry quiz wednesday. i'm spanish was muy facil, and i think i did okay on chemistry. i spent tuesday night reviewing the conversions for moles and whatnot. geometry i thought i did horribly wrong, but i only missed three, so i'm actually very happy about my 88. :)

tomorrow i have an apeuro and geometry test. i went to the library to study after school today, but i didn't get as much done as i wanted to. it closes at 6! -_- and everyone is always walking back and forth, so its hard for me to keep my focus.

before the library i stayed after school to help with the FVMSS program, and there are so many altos. it's seriously two full rows of just altos. two LONG rows. they're pretty cute and can sing pretty well. huy says i can fit right in with them, but i dont think so!

i should be studying right now, but i'm not. i've pretty much been studying all day, so i'm quite tired. probably going to hit the hay a litttle earlier than usual. i still need to read mythology and finish studying aperuo. and review my music for tomorrow. memorized! gahh. i pray i don't screw up, i always get nervous and shaky for quartets.

tomorrow is the end of a long week.
lyna is gonig to be home for the weekend. :)
i'm so excited! i miss her so so much.
its different without her around, but i've found ways to adjust.
going through high school without her here is at times difficult.
there are situations where i want to ask her for help,
but the distance makes it hard, so i tend not to.
i'm learning to depend on myself more.
which is good, right?



eleven months tomorrow. <3

eh.

i think i'm going to stop blogging for a while.
everything i have to say, i either forget or i've already let it out in a different way.
school gets in the way alot.



<3