still can't.

i honestly don't think i'll ever be comfortable with it.
i'm sure you're a nice person, but i'll never feel that way towards you.
why? honestly, i don't really know. but everytime you and you pop into my head, the idea of it bothers me.
maybe i'm just being paranoid.
but, that's me i guess.
we'll never be the same, and as hard as you may try, it's never going to happen.
people change as they grow up, and it's just the way it is.
so you can still be the bitch that you are to people you don't like, but don't expect me to be the same.


augh.
teen angst.


i seriously feel myself blowing up.
this is not good.
i need to relax.
otherwise, i don't know.
i hate wednesday already.
wednesday = tests day.

ew.



pray for me!

those days you felt alive.

i would blog about my time at retreat, but i'm too sore and lazy to.
lets just say it was super fun, and it was a much needed getaway.
i missed everyone though.
but now i'm back.
and reality hits me again.


good thing i love to sing :)

almost there, almost mine.

i am in love with ryan tedder's voice. <3

i think i bombed my apeuro quiz today, augh i so did not prepare well enough. even after reading the whole sections over too! oh well, at least i have a 100% in the class right now. i actually don't have any homework for that class today, and i did the section four homework ahead so i'm all set.

school is pretty much taking up most of my time, and i feel a little distance between me and some of my close friends. the thing is, you know, i guess they could make an effort too? but who am i to complain? i'm pretty sure they're busy themselves. but there are those that are quite enjoyable to talk to and it takes a while for our conversations to die, or not at all. i'm thankful for them. i think as i grow up, i'm going to learn who's really going to be there for me in the future. :)

choir retreat to thousand pines on friday! party party partyyyy. i'm so excited! :D paintball ahahaa. and singing! yayy. i have to miss the first two days of carnival, but its not like i dont go every year, and its not like its different. although i'm a little upset retreat had to fall the same weekend as carnival, i'm trying to keep a positive attitude. at least i get to go sunday!

back to geometry!

hot and cold.

i seriously feel myself having major mood swings everyday.
i dont know what it is though.
maybe it's not enough sleep or something.
things are stressing me out lately, gahhh.
keeping myself together is pretty hard on some days.
i honestly feel like sometimes i just want to scream or blow up.
and i feel myself getting pissed off more easily.
not too sure, but i pray things get better.



nine eleven today.
we watched this video in apeuro and it was so touching.
being only 8 or 9 when this tragic even occurred, i didn't really understand what was going on.
but now that i'm older i realize the impact it had on so many people.
after the video everyone was like really quiet.
it's good to know that other people care too.
war is stupid.


make love. <3

angel of mercy.

school is stressing me out.
so are other things.
eh.
i need a break.