hard to believe.

yeah. quartets were no good today.
i seriously felt like i was going to BLOW UP.
right ruth? you saw me!
GOD.
STOP relying on other people.
STOP thinking that singing is easy.
STOP texting in class while we're singing.
STOP taking this class as a joke.
STOP bringing all the people who work down.
STOP. STOP. STOP. STOP. STOP. STOP.

please?


PLUS.
you are a TROUBADOUR.
HOW DO YOU NOT KNOW YOUR PART BY NOW?!



gah.
i need some yogurt.

is anybody listening?

I really do not enjoy having sectionals in choir. They are pointless and useless because no one ever really listens. We don't really ever accomplish anything, especially in Concert Choir. Most of the time in Troubadours we do, but in CC, most of the members don't care enough to pay attention. It makes me really upset becuase tomorrow when we have octets/quartets, they will complain about how Tison picks on them and how its such a drag. Personally, I like doing quartets and think they're fun becuase I get to show off whthat I know. And if the others also knew their part, then it wouldn't be such a death senence to them.
Today, I brought something up with Jackie to Mr. TIson about how there were some people not knowing their parts as well as they should. Normally I would just keep it to myself, but it was really eating at me. We've had these songs for about a month now, so shouldn't we know most of it? Most of the time I feel like I'm singing by myself and the only one that is actually attempting at singing our part. Just becuase you don't know it entirely doesn't mean you stop singing. Keep singing and make the mistake. That's how I learn, from my own mistakes. Quartets in Troubadours tomorrow, I'm pretty prepared for it, but I plan to go over my music later.

I woke up an hour late from my nap today. So now everything is pushed back.
I need to finished my homework, I have tons.
Feels good when everything is all done and put away though.
:)

BTW RUTH! I prayed that you would pass your driving test!

island.

catalina was a blast.
there are too many things to say about it.
so if you want to know. :)
call me.
teheheheheeeee.







troubadours<3

scantrons.

finals week is basically over for me. all i have is a vocabulary final tomorrow, which should be pretty easy.
i'm really hoping for straight A's, but APEURO and chem are really bringing me down.
These finals are so long. I get so bored filling in 100 bubbles on my scantrons. There are times when I'll just lose concentration and stare into space.
I'm so glad catalina is right after finals tomorrow.
I need to relax.

frog prince.

last night was really overwhelming.
yelling
screaming.
speeding.
but, in the end, i'm glad everything worked out okay.
i don't want to lose you.
and i know well enough to understand.
my emotions tend to get the better of me.
i'm glad everything worked out okay.
<3




finals weeek.
studying my ass off.
augh.
catalinaaaa.
i can't wait to get my ass out there and sing sing sing.

i fail....

at life.







i fail.
i fail
i am so so so sad.

busybusybusy.

Finals are coming up, and I know I should be studying now, but I know that I'm not going to until like two days before.
So far I've fallen asleep in my geometry class twice, which is horrible. I feel so bored in my class though. I don't really bother talking to a lot of people because I don't have time to. Paying attention is what's going to keep me from getting a B in this class. Gah.
Friday in Troubs we had to sing quartets for A Lover and a Lass, and I think I did okay, considering how I didn't practice it the night before. The music for Troubadours is so hard, I hope I can hold my own weight. Lunch, Tiffany and I went to the Rock the Runway meeting for Hurley, and I want to be a model, but i'm not sure if I can. Tiff's going to style my hair. :) Yeee. I walked in and there were so many pretty girls I felt ugly! This coming Thursday is audtions, so I hope I'll do fine. The whole day I was really just looking forward to the day being over so I could see a certain frog. The five of us went to BC and then to snorlax's house. His bed is super super comfortable. I wanted to fall asleep on it. Stayed there until seven and went to choir. I was so so so tired I feel asleeep on Jessica's lap. When I got home I went to sleep right away. The week made me so so tired, and now its almost over! :(
Thieu Nhi resumed yesterday, and we played... err.. idk. I dont know what the game was called but it was pretty scary. Everyone was on the floor grabbing each other. Haah. We are an aggressive group. :) Yesterday was also my fourteen monhts with my froggy<3 Yay. I finished rereading Breaking Dawn yesterday. I still hate Bella. :)
I have not done any of my homework yet, which would be study for APEURO, read To Kill a Mockingbird, and my chemistry lab. Oh well, I'll do it later tonight after mass.
My face is still ugly. :( My pimple is not gone yet. Even though I've drinken lots of water and eaten fruits. Gah, I hate it. I hate it. Stupid Steven had to point it out to everyone. He is honestly the only one rude enough to say that. Every other boy was FINE and kept it to themselves. Goodness.
Idk, sometimes I wish I could just move to a different church with different people. Not that I dont love the one I"m at already, its just that I feel so judged and everyone expects me to be a certain way, and when I do something that is "out of the ordinary" people pass judgements as if they're saints. I'm not perfect, and you can't expect me to be someone you imagine me to be. Take me as I am, and accept it.
I practice music yesterday. My voice is al;dkfjas;dlkhfadlgjkahdlkfjasasa.
a;lsdkgjasdfas






i am this close to despising it.

so it ends.

the last day of break, and of course i procrastinated on my homework until the end.
good thing i'm almost done.
i'm going to have to get back into my zero period sleeping pattern. i've been staying up very late this winter.
yesterday i made a video, and posted it on youtube.
gah.



jason tells me i should write lyrics.
gah.
no good.